The Enigmatic Scorpion

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2010-02-09T01:04:00.003+08:00

Super addiction. Trance.

Ferry Corsten - We Belong

Lyrics
Days... Days... Days...
Stealing secret moments
Breathing in the summer sun
As the sea of changes
Wash ashore

Days
In the great wide open
Theres so much to catch the eye
Your beauty, Shade and light
Shade and light

Quiet Witness to forever
In my silence i keep holding on
I am waiting 'til forever
And i understand where we belong

Quiet Witness to forever
In my silence i keep holding on
I am waiting 'til forever
And i understand where we belong

And i understand where we belong
And i understand where we belong
And i understand where we belong
And i understand where we belong

Days
In the great wide open
Theres so much to catch the eye
Your beauty, Shade of light
Shade of light

Quiet Witness to forever
In my silence i keep holding on
I am waiting 'til forever
And i understand where we belong

Quiet Witness to forever
In my silence i keep holding on
I am waiting 'til forever
And i understand where we belong

[Stand where we be, stand where we be, stand where we be...]

Quiet Witness to forever
In my silence i keep holding on
I am waiting 'til forever
And i understand where we belong

Quiet Witness to forever
In my silence i keep holding on
I am waiting 'til forever
And i understand where we belong

And i understand where we belong
And i understand where we belong

Lyrics:
Take one look at yourself, and realize...
Life's been treating you nice, better be wise...
And enjoy your moments.
Take one look at yourself, into your eyes...
How you treated your life, wasn't too wise...
Cause its getting closer...

Lyrics:

I feel ashamed, again and again
Nothing to give, and no one to blame
During the day, I guess I'm okay.
[x5]

At night, I sit by your side
Waiting for you, to give me a sign
I'm counting the days...
Nothing to say.

ahhhhhhhhhhhh I hope I can chill and stay the same
to stop the bleed inside and feel again
to cut the chain of lies
You've been feeding my veins
I've got nothing to say to you.

I hope I can chill and stay the same
to stop the bleed inside and feel again
to cut the chain of lies
I'm repeating repeating repeating myself.

I feel ashamed, again and again
Nothing to give, and no one to blame
During the day, I guess I'm okay.

At night, I sit by your side
Waiting for you, to give me a sign
I'm counting the days...
Nothing to say.

(cut the chain of lies, you've been feeding my veins)
[x6]

ahhhhhhhhhhhh I hope I can chill and stay the same
to stop the bleed inside and feel again
to cut the chain of lies
You've been feeding my veins
I've got nothing to say to you.

I hope I can chill and stay the same
to stop the bleed inside and feel again
to cut the chain of lies
I'm repeating repeating repeating myself.

I hope I can chill and stay the same
to stop the bleed inside and feel again
to cut the chain of lies
You've been feeding my veins
I've got nothing to say to you.

I hope I can chill and stay the same
to stop the bleed inside and feel again
to cut the chain of lies
I've been beating myself
without nothing to say to you
nothing to say to youuu.

*God knows our relation beneath

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2010-02-09T00:05:00.001+08:00

Until now the places are still as sweet. That strong.

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2010-01-19T01:47:00.002+08:00

Just a lovely and meaningful song. Loved it and still loving it!

Playground of hotdog bun. Overhead bridge of laughter. Membina benches of dreams and promises. Went. Searched. Couldn't find what i dropped there. What went missing. Still the best places ever.

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2010-01-17T23:55:00.003+08:00

N also suddenly i miss this electropica jap band call M.O.V.E so much.

And i can still remember they always sing for Initial D my fav anime last time.

And i'm surprised. The stage 4 is still on youtube!! And still high quality somemore!! Can still remember the impressive graphics and effects. I'm afraid to sleep now and its driving me insane so now i'm watching the episodes again! Here are the epis i'm posting them all here. And if people watch this they will know the real initial d can never win the anime version. Especially the car moments.

Episode 1.

Episode 2.

Episode 3.

Episode 4.

Episode 5.

Episode 6.

Episode 7.

Episode 8.

Episode 9.

Episode 10.

Episode 11.

Episode 12.

Episode 13.

Episode 14.

Episode 15.

Episode 16.

Episode 17.

Episode 18.

Episode 19.

Episode 20.

Episode 21.

Episode 22.

Episode 23.

Episode 24.

Still Jane Tan.

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2010-01-17T21:44:00.002+08:00

Suddenly miss these songs very much..

This time post lyrics version. Can sing and tear along. Its so meaningful.. :)

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2009-12-14T00:43:00.003+08:00

We are still good. Very good. Transformations taking place. The good ones. Results will show. Went to in camp training. Feel fuck up as usual to be wearing green. But it was fun chatting n laughing away with old pals like Wynson, Wesley, Alfred and Jerome.

Here are the our so call "APEC" videos. :)

This is a repost specially for u all. Glad u all like it.

Goals. Common goals. One of the most powerful thing i have learn through experience.

Mine.

Hers.

Believe. Work it hard. I love you forever.

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2009-09-13T00:18:00.001+08:00

Have heard rumors saying Muse is the best band in live performance. I didnt believe. Now i do. Here are the songs performed live.

The voice the music the energy they give to the crowd. Its simply out of this world. :)

Almost dead.

2009-09-09T16:58:00.001+08:00

Today accident. OT at Tuas Point. Shud have gone home straight but wanted to go Tiong Bahru buy her jelly beans. Passby Depot Lane accident. All the taxi fault. Crazy. My windscreen shattered. Nose bled hands light bleeding. Fainted for 5mins. Woke up with pain everywhere. Went NUH or medical checkup and police report after that.

Nun is accurate. But god didnt do a good job. Y wasnt i dead? Shud have taken my life. Now i have an accident case to fight. I'm screwed. I rather be dead.

Got picture but now i need a rest first. Will update again.

Crashed and burnt.

2009-09-06T19:27:00.003+08:00

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

CHORUS
Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here no there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

CHORUS

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same

When you were here before,
couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so very special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out again...
She's running out
she runs, runs, runs, runs...
runs...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here...

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2009-09-04T15:17:00.002+08:00

Today a life and death situation on the road.

Raining, the road is wet. Container truck jams brakes in front and shift over to my lane to dodge some cars upfront. I braked hard. Even with the help of engine brake, my vehicle is moving forward fast.

I dodged. Into the filter lane. My vehicle almost flipped over with right wheels grinding the kurb hard. Supervisor said i'm lucky and i shud have been dead.

At that short split minutes. Many things come into my mind. I thought i was dead for sure. I was wondering, wondering.

Who will come to my funeral?
Who will be fast enough to see me before my last breath?
Who will grieved in sorrows for years over the loss of me?
Who will regret losing me so suddenly?
Who will curse and celebrate over my ceremony?
LOL.

I also wondered how it will be like to be dead. Maybe we will get to see and know things that we will never find out while alive. Things like what will life be for the ones who know u after ur departure? Things like who will actually sincerely remember this loss for life? Things like how much do u really mean to some people around u. Things like who ever lied or cheated on u in any ways. Or maybe even things like who are the sincere and truthful people and who are those hypocrites. LOL. I mean perhaps as a spirit u might get to see what normal human being can't.

I think i might need to change job. For i felt that this was a serious warning to me. Sounds supernatural but it feels that way. I'm glad i'm alive still, for one more day. One more day to love the people important to me.

Recently my fav song on FM while working.

The Fray - Never say never.

Cherish everything. Including life. For i know as i stretched mine for the second time. First was the motorbike accident years back. This time i wasnt hospitalized. But i do know it was critical. My life was stretched thin like a rubber band at its maximum elasticity. It was almost a critical goodbye.

Mind Relaxlogy.

2009-08-20T16:02:00.003+08:00

Relax my mind. My favorites for mind recuperation and rejuvenation.

TRANCE.

Delerium Feat. Jael Of Lunik.

NEW AGO.

ERA - Misere Mani.

ERA - Mother.

ERA - Infanati

ERA - Looking For Something.

Funny amazing. Until now I'm still having butterflies in my stomach whenever she send or reply my smses. Its magical.

Sad.

2009-08-20T15:06:00.002+08:00

My turn to be having a short rest. But not actually cos still many things to handle inside my head. Darling has been very busy with school and start of work. Learning everywhere. Breaks my heart to see her so tired. Miss her very extremely much recently. Never really have the chance to have quality time together. And I don't know why recently I'm always having this nice songs in my head whenever I think of her. Nice song with meaningful lyrics. Will post it here now.

Tokio Hotel - Monsoon. (LIVE)

I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold, it's making me insane
I've been waitin' here so long
Another moment seems to've come
I see the dark clouds comin' up again

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I'll think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon
Just me and you

A halfmoon fading from my sight
I see your vision in its light
But now it's gone and left me so alone
I know I have to find you now
Can hear your name,I don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness feel like home?

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I'll think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Hey!
Hey!

I'm fighting all this power coming in my way
Let it take me straight to you,
I'll be running night and day
I'll be with you soon
Just me and you
We'll be there soon
So soon

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I'll think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon
Through the monsoon
Just me and you
Through the monsoon
Just me and you

I miss you like crazy. Saw a nightmare last night. And its still haunting me whenever I close my eyes. I'm trying very hard to shut myself out. As I can feel him coming back to me. He wants to haunt me deep inside. I'm strong. You made me strong. I will never let it happen. Please take my nightmare away and never let it happen again.

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2009-08-06T01:20:00.002+08:00

Gregorian - Once In A Lifetime.

When I realise there's no telling lies
Then I know it once in a lifetime
Making love to you
Everytime it's new
You know you're my once in a lifetime.

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2009-08-02T23:36:00.003+08:00

Her heavenly grace. Godlike and incomparable.
Her enchanting clarity. Ever pure and clear.
Her tender heart. Kind and clean from poison.

She is out of this world. Disinfected. Uncorrupted.
Things that help me see, learn and grow.

Her love and existence makes me stronger every minute.
Her heart warming smile takes my fears, rage and nightmares away.
Her ever watchful attention and care makes sure I don't fall along the way.

I'm no longer the same Kenneth because of her. And I can conclude this is the power of love.

:))

2009-08-02T23:32:00.002+08:00

Although depression is often thought of a being an extreme state of sadness, there is a vast difference between clinical depression and sadness. Sadness is a part of being human, a natural reaction to painful circumstances. All of us will experience sadness at some point in our lives. Depression, however, is a physical illness with many more symptoms than an unhappy mood. The person with clinical depression finds that there is not always a logical reason for his dark feelings. Exhortations from well-meaning friends and family for him to "snap out of it" provide only frustration for he can no more "snap out of it" than the diabetic can will his pancreas to produce more insulin. Sadness is a transient feeling that passes as a person comes to term with his troubles. Depression can linger for weeks, months or even years. The sad person feels bad, but continues to cope with living. A person with clinical depression may feel overwhelmed and hopeless.

To clarify the differences between normal sadness and depression, the DSM-IV* defines specific criteria for the diagnosis of major depression. A person who suffers from a major depressive disorder must either have a depressed mood or a loss of interest or pleasure in daily activities consistently for at least a two week period. This mood must represent a change from the person's normal mood and impair his functioning in his daily life. A depressed mood caused by substances such as drugs, alcohol, or medications is not considered a major depressive disorder, nor is one which is caused by a general medical condition. Major depressive disorder cannot be diagnosed if a person has a history of bipolar disorder (ie. manic, hypomanic or mixed episodes) or if the depressed mood is better accounted for by schizoaffective disorder and is not superimposed on schizophrenia. Further, t he symptoms should not be better accounted for by bereavement, i.e., after the loss of a loved one, the symptoms persist for longer than 2 months or are characterized by marked functional impairment, morbid preoccupation with worthlessness, suicidal ideation, psychotic symptoms, or psychomotor retardation.

Lifestyle changes are not always easy to make, but they can have a big impact on depression. Take a good look at your own lifestyle. What changes could you make to support depression recovery? Self-help strategies that can be very effective include:

* Cultivating supportive relationships
* Getting regular exercise and sleep
* Eating a healthy, mood-boosting diet
* Managing stress
* Practicing relaxation techniques
* Challenging negative thought patterns

Everything is gonna be alright baby. I will be here for you. :)

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2009-08-02T13:56:00.003+08:00

The Fray - How To Save A Life. (Lyrics Vid).

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars. (Lyrics Vid).

Howie Day - Collide. (Lyrics Vid).

Simple Plan - Untitled. (Official Vid. Very Meaningful.)

I open my eyes
I try to see but Im blinded by the white light
I cant remember how
I cant remember why
Im lying here tonight

And I cant stand the pain
And I cant make it go away
No I cant stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As Im fading away
Im sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybodys screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
Im slipping off the edge
Im hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I cant explain what happened
And I cant erase the things that Ive done
No I cant

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As Im fading away
Im sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As Im fading away
Im sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Love these songs so much. So meaningful. So many emotions. I miss you.

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2009-08-01T22:59:00.002+08:00

Virgo Woman with Scorpio Man Love Match Compatibility.

One of the Virgo girl’s most shining virtues is her gentle and unselfish devotion to the man she loves. She is a born homemaker with a great (but quiet imagination) and splendid creativity. She is also highly loyal and works unselfishly for the good of the ones she loves.

One of the Scorpio man’s most laudable qualities is his loyal and intense devotion to the woman he loves. His integrity is legendary and hardly ever can a Scorpio be called a two – timer or unfaithful. Once a woman has won his heart, it is hers forever. He is also highly protective of his loved ones and those who stand in this way – Beware!

These two together can be very happy and can enjoy every moment of their time together. It’s a beautiful picture. But even the best of pictures have a few mars and blemishes. So does this one – very much intended by the artist (poetry of imperfection). Imperfection makes us real. ‘To tolerate minor flaws and imperfections’ is one lesson Virgo will decidedly dislike learning. Scorpio was born comprehending it. Maybe he can explain it to her. She’ll listen to him. She trusts this man. Let us hope her individual Scorpio deserves that faith. Quite likely, he does. The sense of integrity in a typical Scorpion runs strong. It’s almost impossible for him not to live up to what is expected of him, what others trust him to stand for — unshakable integrity.

The Virgo woman may believe that, if the Scorpio man is “true to himself,” this means he will never keep anything from her. Not necessarily. What he will never do is be dishonest with her. Once an Scorpio has committed himself to a relationship, he will be true to his vows of love. His natural instinct is to be loyal — and to be honest. The Virgo who’s involved with this man, and still undecided about the safety of planning a long-term relationship with him, can be sure that, should another woman ever enter his life, it will either be a fleeting thing —or she will be truthfully told that his heart has wandered elsewhere. However it is most possible that he will end it immediately and return his heart to her, where it belongs.

One of the Virgo girl’s outstanding characteristics is self-sufficiency. She doesn’t think the world — or a man — owes her anything. One of the Scorpio’s outstanding characteristics is self-confidence. He doesn’t wait around for the world — or a woman — to judge his worth or value. So will any woman who expects to be his woman. It hardly ever happens that these two aggressively pursue love by rushing into each other’s arms when they first meet. Both of them are shy, sometimes even painfully shy. Oh, she may chatter away with friends on a myriad of subjects, and he may be busy with his relatives, close friends, or working associates, but in the area of human emotions, they are both inclined to be reticent. Her self-sufficiency and his self-confidence are buried beneath the surface, like a hidden treasure they secretly count on when the world lets them down. It’s not likely these two will ever let each other down, because being able to trust another person is so very important to them both.

This man’s love nature is more intense than that of the average male, which is only natural, because in no way is Scorpio “average.” Her love nature is more transcendental, yet there is also much of the unsophistication in her intimate behavior with him. It’s a combination to which he’ll respond eagerly, for he has two sides to his sexual needs also. One part of him looks upon the union between man and woman as a mystical experience, a holy thing. The other part is sensuous, erotic, seeking every level of passion for absolute fulfillment. In the beginning, there may be areas of adjustment in their lovemaking, but when they’ve learned they can be themselves with each other, without fear of hurt or rejection, the problems will disappear. Strangely, with both of them, there could be a holding back in the physical expression of love.

Both Virgo and Scorpio tend to reserve their real selves for someone special, a love that’s for keeps — with all the necessary and very precious imperfections. Their relationship is likely to hold on and be enjoyable for a long long time.

When she sings this. Its the best voice, best thing i ever heard. Better than the actual singer itself. It echos in my head. Insomnia.

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2009-08-01T02:39:00.002+08:00

Life is unbelievable. Indeed even unpredictable.
Its so wonderful and scary at the same time.
Every winding road leads to many corners of life.
Majority fears death. Minority seeks death.
But what we do not realize is staying alive
can be scarier than being dead.
Who is to trust and who is to doubt?
Who will you trust and who will you doubt?
Often in life the one you doubt is true.
And the ones you trust creates doubts.
Who is to point fingers at who?
But special cases do exist. Have faith.
Contradicting. Yes. Just like we humans can't really
decide if we should be alive or better off dead?
While I always think that the scariest thing is not to kill
but be killed by the closest.
And people do not realize the greatest weapon ever created are just
words.
People say don't worry be happy. Now perhaps this makes sense because life
is just a joke and nothing serious for some.
And what is the link between love and self defense?
The answer is nothing. I just know when you see and feel love,
just go selflessly, get killed and dead even if you have too.
The hardest question in life is to choose to love or be loved. I tried both.
I will still go with to love. To love even if there's no return.
How do we people measure love? Its for sure not how special you think you are
or how much effort you give. Sad to say it can't be measured.

You're so fucking special. I wish I am special. I'm nothing special.

LOL. Just something nice I found online. Enjoy peeps while you're still alive.

Still strong still loving still everlasting.

2009-08-01T01:05:00.004+08:00

Been hell long never blog. Don't intend to blog long ones cos of busy schedules theses days. My life is fine and good everyday with her by my side. Just feel like blogging songs mtv and lyrics for fun.. And also pictures of our happy times we will never able to forget. :)

Jacks Mannequin - Dark Blue.

I have (I have) you breathing down my neck (breathing down my neck)
I don't (don't know) what you could possibly expect under this condition so
I'll wait (I'll wait) for the ambulance to come (ambulance to come)
Pick us up off the floor
What did you possibly expect under this condition so

Slow down.. this night's a perfect shade of
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room when I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning (burning) down
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning 'til there's nothing but dark blue..
Just dark blue

This flood (this flood) is slowly rising up swallowing the ground
Beneath my feet, Tell me how anybody thinks under this condition so
I'll swim (I'll swim) as the water rises up, the sun is sinking down
And now all I can see are the planets in a row
Suggesting it's best that I slow down

This night's a perfect shade of
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room when I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning (burning) down
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning dark blue

We were boxing
We were boxing the stars
We were boxing (we were boxing)
You were swinging for Mars
And then the water reached the West Coast
And took the power lines (the power lines)
And it was me and you (this could last forever)
And the whole town under water
There was nothing we could do
It was dark blue

Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning (burning) down
Dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning now there's nothing but dark blue

If you've ever been alone in the dark blue
If you've ever been alone you'll know (you'll know)

The Script - Man Who Can't Be Moved.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

Rob Thomas - Ever The Same.

Rob Thomas - Little Wonders.

Pictures!!

Her talent of taking stupid pics of me.. There were worse ones... =X

We are loving. Yes indeed. I sucks at love. But humans learn. I'm learning to be her perfect man. 4 months and I ensure everything will be going strong still. I thought I knew what cherish meant years back. Just to realize I just learn it from her. I love her very much. She's so fucking special. I wish I was special. I wish she knows. But no matter what I will make myself special. I love you. :)

*Last but not least. "FU GUI HUA KAI LAH!* :))

Blog...

2009-05-06T00:06:00.002+08:00

Its been a month plus since she entered my life. Many things happened. Did many things together. Its been the most wonderful time of my life and never will want it to end. Baby you're the one who know everything and have seen every corner of my heart. :))

We did alot of things and have alot of memories. Alot of dicussion, mind stimulation and exchanging of feelings. We even went to temple to pray and ask for lot. Many things revolves around us are things I have never experience before. Thank you darling so much for everything you have given. You know how much you mean to me and will for sure see how firm and strong my promises are.

For dear friends, pals and passerbys. Pictures taken recently below all at the same time!!! HEEE.. XP

I'm truly blessed and satisfied. This is part one. Part two I will reveal the pray lot darling got from "Qian Shou Guan Ying".. HEEEE... XD

:)))))

2009-04-23T12:51:00.001+08:00

Thought that I was going crazy
Just having one of those days yeah
Didn't know what to do
Then there was you

And everything went from wrong to right
And the stars came out and filled up the sky
The music you were playing really blew my mind
It was love at first sight

'Cause baby when I heard you
For the first time I knew
We were meant to be as one

Was tired of running out of luck
Thinking 'bout giving up yeah
Didn't know what to do
Then there was you

And everything went from wrong to right
And the stars came out and filled up the sky
The music you were playing really blew my mind
It was love at first sight

'Cause baby when I heard you
For the first time
I knew we were meant to be as one

And everything went from wrong to right
And the stars came out and filled up the sky
The music yoy were playing really blew my mind
It was love at first sight

Passion Play.

2009-04-23T12:37:00.000+08:00

When you touched my face
When you call my name
I'm burned with desire.

:)))))))))))))))))

Amazingly unforgettable.

2009-04-22T13:31:00.002+08:00

21 - 22nd April 2009.

From the things we did on the night of 21st to the morning light of the 22nd.

To the visiting of THE PEAK showflat at Toa Payoh.

Darling you have given me something amazingly unforgettable.

:)))))

Random. Short.

2009-04-09T12:41:00.003+08:00

Another random short post before I really have time for a long and detail one. Still waiting for darling to do her new post too!!!

Macdonalds have never tasted so good.
I'm addicted to fries and corn cup with you.
I'm addicted to you.
I'm addicted to your effort to do nonsense along with me.
I'm addicted to your smile, your hugs, your touch, your kiss and your scent.

:))))))))))

Short.

2009-04-08T18:37:00.003+08:00

Short post. For fun. New blogskin as requested from my darling Jane Tan.

Will do a proper post soon. Anyway today is a special day. Really special day..

P.S** P8 is the reason why I isolate my social life for you. He's the best answer I can give for putting your blog as the only link. He's also the perfect example of what I meant by external unnecessary disturbance to a love relationship.

:)))))

Comforting.

2009-03-29T11:33:00.003+08:00

Its feels like the whole world is talking.

The world is telling me I'm crazy.

The world is telling me its too much for me to bare.

The world is telling me its much more than I can ever give.

The world is telling me she deserves much more than just me.

But she replied.
"No such things ok? ok? ok? :)*

This comfort gives me a real reason to be crazy ain't it?
She' nothing but real to me. And thats everything to my world.

2009-03-28T14:54:00.000+08:00

Boys Like Girls - Thunder.

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know, whoa
Today I'm on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I don't know

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain,

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road
That's taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder, and I said

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain

**A song for Jane. :)

.

2009-03-27T18:20:00.001+08:00

ITS GETTING FUCKUP AND INTENSE. I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG MORE CAN I HOLD ON...

Intense.

2009-03-26T01:24:00.002+08:00

Here to update. Sorry for the delay..

Previously stated that I will blog an intense one cause was like feeling very intense. Been around chatting with so many people. Nice stranger. Nice friends. But almost all I found the same weakness in them as a human being. Which is actually what I call the "ugly disconcern". People nowadays are only concern about power and money. And when we talk about money, its only how you're gonna earn it and how you're gonna enjoy spending it. I'm doing sales. I talk to people from the poor to the rich. All the same. Disconcern is within.

You can ask anyone about the bad market now. They know. Ask them about gossip news on idols. They know. But never the real important ones. I'm gonna state it out now. And lets see if you know or not..

1. Honey bees are going from endangered to extinction soon. Many do not know. And many would think it doesn't really matter and its beyond control. Well nothing is beyond control in this world. And if people do read, honey bee is listed as one of the top ranking animal we need in this world in order to survive as without them. Almost half of the plants population will be affected indirectly. Most will be because honey bees are the only ones helping them reproduce and without these plants, the oxygen and carbon dioxide cycle will go unbalance and thus endanger humans and Earth.

2. 3 weeks ago. A star near our planet exploded and it flew passed Earth at 1/5 the distance between moon and Earth. Its huge in size. And records shown the last time we were hit by an asteriod, its size was only 1/6 of the one that just flew passed us but already destroyed 18000 sq ft of forest and land.

3. Obama is on the verge of taking over the presidential position over from Bush. And till this very date. No further declaration has been made for those that died during 911 incident. No one from the US government step forward to give further explaination for the documentaries that was shown on internet and Tv which explains 911 incident as an "inside job". Sad isn't it? No one cares. Probably because your mom was dead inside the building then.

I remembered posting vids about it. I have lots of friends. How many have actually took the time, effort and patience to watch the videos? Its a sad answer I never know perhaps. I remembered doing a survey on facebook and it asked, "when was the last time you cried?" I remembered answering "forgotten". Now I can say I do remember. The last time tears came into my eyes when I sat down whole night watching these vids. I'm gonna post it again here.

911 - The Falling Man.

AND THESE TRUTHS BEHIND THE ATTACKS..

Part One.

Part Two.

Part Three.

Part Four.

Lets talk about Singapore. Roughly about 2 weeks ago. Many of us might have been to town. Its a common place to be. Personally I work in town. 2 bloody weeks ago. I made my way to Fareast Plaza for lunch. Along the way, I saw many school kids with those tins asking for donation. Fair enough. Although my thinking about donation in our fucking nation is "Its marketing. Not charity". But then nvm. Lets move on. When I reached Fareast, my heart sank. I see handicaps on wheel chair asking for donation. They were all holding the same damn tins. Each have their locations. They were all alone. It was a bloody hot fucking day. No one was around to see if they need any help. No drinks were with them as I inspect the surrounding carefully. I MEAN WHAT THE FUCK RIGHT? YOU BLOODY ASK DONATION FROM HELPFUL PEOPLE LIKE US SO THEY CAN HAVE A BETTER LIFE AND THIS IS THEIR BETTER LIFE?!

When I looked at them. They gave me the "lost" face. No expression shown. No smile. Nothing.. This is charity for Singapore.

Last week the mattress I purchased for my parents arrived. Could see they were so happy. And here's a funny picture. My dad told me he's gonna test the mattress again.

Test until fall asleep like log. Must help him switch off lights somemore. LOL!

Also bought my new desktop.

1k for everything. Broke liao.. LOL. But still yet completed. Have to wall mount the LCD mornitor to the wall and also wall mount a wooden panel on the wall for my mouse, keyboards and other stuffs... XP

And here's some super random nice pics while lunching with lunch buddy Christina Wong.

And this is me in Paragon toilet. LOL!!! =X

As stated in my facebook. Had a super important date and I wasn't joking. Went out with Jane Tan. Went for good food at Marina Square for lunch. The restaurant's name is in chinese. And wth we both can't read. So yeah... Here's the picture.

Crab meat, fish meal, scallop, egg and vinegar mixed together. It doesnt look good but tasted not bad though.

This one super wth. Its called "SzeChuan Ramen" I think. Followed Jane order this. LOL!

Xiao Long Bao!!! In the end mostly I eat. She wants me to perform... LAUGHS!

Snapshot of her. =)

This is the view of the restaurant's entrance.

Went for a movie session after that. Memorable.

Met up with her friends who are doing property also. Nice people. After that went down town walk walk. And had dinner at Pasta Cafe. Not bad. But the people beside us ar. Gossip about work politics until the whole damn cafe can hear sia.. Buay ta han..

After which we had a long but nice heart to heart talk session. It was an incredible day. Totally awesome. Its after having the fate to talk, I realized someone like her exist. The same frequency I have been searching for these years. Her sensitivity touched my inner smile. Its beyond words. I love your companion too. Please don't stop anything and everything. :))

SORRY

2009-03-25T01:16:00.001+08:00

SORRY PEOPLE..............................

Was out for an important date. So not enough sleep and I need to catch some immediately. Will do the post by tonight. Small delay. =X

=)

A week late. LOL!!

2009-03-12T00:07:00.004+08:00

OKAY. FINALLY I'M BACK. Although promised Catherine but I'm a week later.. But its due to my new handphone. Not my fault. Until now I have yet to find out how to upload pictures directly from the damn phone to the computer. I have to bluetooth to my lil' bro's phone then USB to the laptop.. SHIT. But I simply love the phone to even see this as a problem. LOL!!

Bought the Motorola Razor v8 Luxury Edition because of my damn LG Shine. The LCD screen just cracked while I was playing pool with my friend? I guess so. It must be during that period of time.. =/

Have to hunt the whole Singapore for this damn phone cos its so called "limited edition" and only comes in limited quantities per shipment. The other reason which I personally heard from some friends is that Motorola is going unstable in business so they have to slow down the production drastically. Well I guess its both? And finally I managed to find available stock (last 2 pieces) in Ngee Ann City (Singtel), which is just opposite of where I work but had to be welcomed with poor fucking service.. Seriously.

I stood there for fcuking 10mins and no one attended to me. I asked for the stock availability and I had to wait for someone free to help me get my answer. And this damn woman came to me and tell me there's no stock available when I didn't even ask her. In the end one barely nicer gentlemen direct me to wait at one of the counter while the counter girl checked for me. In within the next 2mins she found last 2 sets. Gave me her answer in front of the previous damn woman. Of cos she apologized but seriously I was so mad. Asked for the price without contract as I have got none in my family to upgrade. $998, I paid and walked off right in front of that damn woman. It feels fuckup not to be treated seriously when indeed you are ready to commit to the product and price. Anyway below are pictures of it. :))

As for work wise.. Damn stress up. Paragon or in fact the whole town is like a ghost town. Only Sunday. YEAH FCUKING SUNDAY. When all these Filipinos flock down to Orchard Road. They make our Orchard underpass super congested with their "project runway catwalks". They jammed up the whole area outside CK TANGS and Lucky Plaza. They invade and conquer the inside of Lucky Plaza. Thus no lunch there for sure. They sit everywhere and picnic anywhere. Even behind the Rolex building and Paragon itself!!!! ARGH.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAKE A STOP..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And I really don't where are all the rich people.. Seriously. People in Paragon nowadays totally have no spending power at all.. And if you people passed by and notice. We already have some shops closing down or moving out. Yeah.. That bad.

Top sales last month. But this month yet the lowest so far.. FCUK. Went for competitors inspections. Been doing this for quite sometime. This time I first went to Harvey Norman to check out their Italian range of furniture. And my only feedback is fuckup. Really. People with money and happen to read this here right now, don't buy. Don't fucking buy. The nicoletti range of sofa, materials not up to standard and the workmanship is as fcukup as the China range.. Sale staffs are slow and gives poor service. I don't know how the Millenia Walk branch survives for this long like this beside one of the top Italian furniture dealer in Singapore "Space furniture" which deals with brands like B&B Italia. This brand is as simple as telling you that you're buying the "Louis Vuitton-like" range of sofa in Italian furniture line. The name B&B is that strong.

I also dropped by Le Mercier and It was "OH MY FCUKING GOD". No joke. 4 levels building by itself. Comparing to my company "XZQT", one of the top brands we carry is "Frighetto" and the most expensive set I have ever seen with my own eyes from this brand is this following:

Paramount.

This is around 45k before discount.

And at Le Mercier. Their top brand is "De Sede" from Switzerland. And I was able to witness its top piece in their showroom.

DS600.

The 8 seater which is half the size you see in this picture is going at around 150k before discount..

So in simple words. They up my company in terms of furniture range. =/

People are falling out of love one by one around me.. Scary. Lucky I'm not in one. In fact I have not been in one since Oct last year. I find it harder and harder to find a suitable partner nowadays. Is it my age? Or is it the society? I'm still wondering..

Woke up damn freaking early today. 7.45am -____-"'

Because I have to attend stupid meeting at head office. So damn tired now sia.. After meeting head down to meet Gordan at Larvender. He went to renew his passport. And after that we headed down east side to his customer's house. And FCUK he messed up the address. Its suppose to be Tampiness Block 718 but he brought me down to Pasir Ris instead. Had a great meal at this Thai restaurant but after that accompanied him walked for about 10mins from Pasir Ris Mrt to Pasir Ris Block 718 in the damn drizzling weather just to find out he messed up. LOL!! -____-"'

But I don't mind. Really. Cos I have always mention, my best of the best buddies are never on facebook. And he's one of my best buddies. He have never ever ignored me when I seeked for financial assistance in the past. He have never ever rejected me when I asked for help like (painting my room together). Never ever disappointed me.

Took a cab down to Tampiness Block 178. After that headed down Century Square because we wanted to visit the "Seahorse" showroom as I promised my parents to change their mattress by this month and Gordan wanna get one for himself. In the end didn't commit cos of the poor service and the damn "full payment thingy". We didn't like the idea seriously. No warranty and you want full payment from us? This is the first time I visit your damn showroom to only spend freaking 1/2 hour sitting on your mattress and you tell us you all don't accept "deposit" and "cash on delivery"? Come on la! We also not first day doing sales lehhh.. Maybe your company only issue you the commission after delivery is done but hey thats not our fcuking problem get it?? King size at only $520 after 50% discount. Cheap but still we walked out of it. Its not the matter of amount, but the point of sales.. =/

We then dragged our arse down to the west side "Lakeside". Went down to Gordan ex company. In the end bought the king size mattress there for $900 with $100 deposit. Here's a pic of the mattress I found online. (Maxcoil).

Alright.......... I actually have more to write about but am really super duper ultimately absolutely extremely internationally shockingly world class world record tired. Below are pictures I have camwhored while trying out my new phone de camera. Like the quality of the pictures very much. Ohhh. Yeah. And forgot to mention. Friday gonna take MC to go down Suntec IT fair with Gordan. Gonna buy new computer desktop set. Roughly another 1k gone.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO MONEY AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :((

Took this in Heeren while waiting for Christina to finish her toilet business.

Some camwhoring pictures at home with my new painted wall, black sclera lens, my Marc Jacobs shades and my normal look before off to work.

Inside the Thai restaurant in White Sand.

This is Gordan. 28/Chi/Male/Single. Anyone interested? LOL!!

Screwing around with effects on the phone.

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Back LOL.

2009-02-23T21:46:00.004+08:00

Okkay I'm here to update. Really. LOL!! =X

Life has been quite the same. Work is alright though workloads have just increased and my pay is not due to the bad market. -___-"'

Sales wise I'm lucky this month i suppose. Still the top sales of my company.. Hope I don't get caught up by someone else. LOL!!!!!!!!!! =X

Off days spent on playing electric guitar at home and writing new chords (though i very much hope to be able to start laying my hands on the 2 KORG synthesizer keyboards). But yeah. Still many things need to settle. So that will only come in probably in June. And best thing lah. Cellphone have to die on me at such times. Its still working but then i can't read msges clearly due to the LCD crack. Gonna change it! Looking at the Motorola Razor2 V8 Luxury. The gold/black colour combination just makes me drool.. Other phones are either just too bulky or too complicated. Too many functions can be troublesome. =/

If not my off days were spent playing pool at Cine with Jia Yuan or window shopping with Gordon. Went to look for computers, clothes, bed linens, pillows and many other things. And yes! I have alot of things to buy. Need to buy in fact. =/

Friends have been falling out of love everywhere. Lucky I'm not in one.. They either got ditched or cheated. Yeah crap. People in this world are just getting more and more screwed in the head. Come to think of it, this applies to my last relationship too. This screwed up mind mixed Chinese/Aussie just wanna have an uncommitted relationship with me. After going through it for few months. I just come to conclude I'm not screwed up and I simply can't enjoy being in a relationship that gives me "everything" but not commitment. Felt like her "play" partner though. Friends said i was crazy to let go. I think it would be more crazy to go on. :)

And to this person by the name of "Jane Tan". I hope you're okay and I'm glad you're fine. Hope you realise the pain was a worthy lesson. Life is about learning in every aspects. :)

Recently customer flow has been very slow. So often i do get the chance to leave the shop and do my own window shopping in Paragon. Suddenly I realised I really really love to shop in supermarkets. It will definitely be better if its with my girl but sadly I don't have one. LOL. Its great exploration looking through different sauces available. Different fishes available for cooking. Different prices for meat. Different brands of shampoo and shower gel. Different crazy price for pampers and milk powder. Really expensive.. O_o

Suddenly all these made me realised I'm not only interested in music but also home making. I do know how to cook but really really wanna upgrade man. Wanna learn all those really very very Italian or French dishes. I shall go and buy a cook book and start playing around with it soon. XP

Really interested in the word "HOME". I believe its a place one should spend most of his/her energy and money on. From interior designs, to furniture pieces and to the relationship within the place. Interesting. And this reminds me my bed is coming in April!!! ONE MORE MONTH! YESSSSSSS!!!!!!

Music wise. Been exploring around. And i realise i do not really like shredding metal that much. Those songs with guitar players playing like guitar heroes. I love songs with normal rhythm guitarist working with superb syn keyboardist and drummer with very good sense of rhythm. So now I found myself much more in love with Industrial Metal like "Rammstein and M.O.V.E", Alternative Rock like "Falling Up and Placebo" and Symphonic Metal like "Nightwish".

Got no new pictures to really upload so forget about it. But I can't resists telling everyone the fact about how much I love Rammstein's (Germany) and Nightwish's (Finland) live performance!!!!!! THE BEST CONCERTS I WILL NEVER WANT TO MISS. PLEASE COME TO SINGAPORE!! LETS WATCH IT AGAIN!! XP

Enjoy it people..

Rammstein - Feuer Frei (LIVE IN LONDON)

Rammstein - Feuer Frei (LIVE IN NIMES)

Rammstein - Feuer Frei (Fanmade Live Videos With Sub Title)

Nightwish - Phantom Of The Opera (LIVE)

Nightwish - Wishmaster (LIVE)

Nightwish - Kinslayer (LIVE)

Serious.

2009-02-06T23:06:00.003+08:00

Okay finally decided to post a new entry again.. I know some of you happen to find out about what happened on my facebook wall. But its okay now. I don't give a damn. He can go be a crazy dog himself. I'm here to blog about more serious stuffs.

As seen in previous post. I'm here to do the updated one. Quick and simple. Here we go.

**Gonna take away
-Zoom HD16 Recorder.

**Gonna push further away
-Stuhrling Centurion Watch.

**Have already received
-Guess Varick Leather Shoes.

**Already bought
-Zoom G9.2TT Guitar Multi-Effects Pedel. ($580.00)
-Queen Size Bedframe and mattress from Cellini. ($1488.00)

Here's the exact picture of the bed and mattress in exact colour.

**Already re-painted my room. ($140.00)

And now below will be the wall plan i did myself for my home studio.
(One piece of my wall).

Took away "Zoom HD16 Recorder" because those guys at Citymusic recommended me to do recording, mixing and master tracking all directly to the computer. Its better as claimed. Thus because of this plan, few items are added to the list.

-CPU Computer set.
-Pod Studio UX2 Recorder.
-Korg PA50. (This is because of me myself) LOL!!!

Here are the pictures.

*Pod Studio UX2.

*Korg PA50 Aurranger Keyboard.

My bedframe and mattress will come into my room in April. That will be also the same month which i will wall mount all the glass panels. Buy the CPU set also and wall mount the LCD screen. All these in April.

*Cutting of glass, mounting with brackets will cause about $200+/-.

May will bring in the MicroKorg XL and Line6 Pod Studio UX2. June then the Korg PA50 Aurranger Keyboard. July then have to get the Mic Condenser, Mic Stand and Mic Muffler most probably from Luthermusic or Hong Brothers. Citymusic have decided not to bring in all these to sell anymore.. :(

Not forgetting a studio headset but didn't bother to start sourcing yet. Not an expensive item. Leave it the others' recommendation.

August probably relax awhile. September get a second electric guitar. Most probably gonna be Ibanez ICT Iceman Model. Around $1300+/-. Will source for best price though.

Then only after all these is completed and i have my home studio up and running, i will get my Stuhrling watch and most probably change my Gucci belt to a Prada belt.

So total budget for my room/home studio is:

S$7798.00

But minus away those i have already purchased and done.

So is still S$5590.00 to go.

Conclusion is everything will be done by September 2009. Finally i can rest assure as most of the things are already confirmed. So now it just all takes time.

And not forgetting to mention had a great lunch with new neighbour "Chirstina Wong". LOL!! Thanks!

Calling her neighbour cause i'm staying in Woodlands and she in Marsilling. I'm working in Paragon and she in Ngee Ann City. LOL!!!

Alright gotta go sleep. Seriously need some good rest before i can resume my weight training on coming Monday.

Till then people.

SUPER DUPER LONG!!

2009-01-21T22:23:00.005+08:00

Ok finally i'm back here doing a super long post before i go overseas for this lunar new year.

Have been super duper stress with sales. Market has really reached the super ultimate broken level. And its hard. But i believe this goes to everyone.. And i hope this taught some of my friends a lesson. Friends who never thought such a bad outcome would actually happen to us now. Friends who made big mistakes just months ago. Friends who made big commitments like changing their cars to a super expensive ones. Friends who picked up shares for greed. Friends who followed playing shares blindly. Friends who gambled and lost. Friends who gambled, lost and now on the run away from Loansharks. Please, i hereby urge, let go of your stupidity. Its enough. Enough damage done. Now we must be smart. Like most richie rich. They hide motionless. Hiding away from this crisis. If the rich and powerful have to hide away from this financial tsunami, who are we to say we can fight back by taking bigger risk?

Last Friday, met up with Jia Yuan, Sean (with his wife and daughter) and Ken Ken. Met up at Cine for some pool games. Sean's daughter is super duper cute laaaa!!!!! I want a daughter too man. =/

Initially she was scare of my "black eyes" but after awhile start playing with me with the pool balls.. LOL. Went downstairs as they need to smoke (as usual). Then met Sabrina. They were going for a night movie but i counted myself out cause i wanna go home watch "YI ZHI MEI"!! LOL!!! Sean and family left too without catching the night movie session. I guess its because of their sweet little one. :)
Then saw Amaryllis opposite Cine Cheers with her friends. We were like so near but she didn't see me. Anyway didn't call out for her also. Wasn't really 100% sure then.

Yesterday met up with Gordan, King and Sky Lee for our usual gathering. Bought a Tocco Toscano white formal shirt and red crocodile embossed leather wallet. Spent $170 in total for them. Lucky got discount. If not would be at $200 plus. And was so super shy. Sales girl at Toscano exchange mobile number with me. But don't call me flirt. Wasn't my fault. It was all Gordan's fault. He's the one doing the sweet talking to her all evening. Went down to Cine to have a late dinner in the food court at the basement. Saw Mr Henry Gunawan Tjoe there!! Seriously been a decade but he's still looking good. Well but he was shocked by my changed of body built and of cause, my sclera lens.. LOL. Caught a late night show later. Watched "Red Cliff 2". Super good. No disappointment at all. You can feel the standard and level of entertainment is still there. As good as the first one.

To Cheryl and others.. Please have a little more patience. LOL!! My I Models pictures are not ready yet. Will post it once i have it from them. Anyway i doubt it will be that nice or that good as you all expect. And after so long of barking behind Ms Roziah, she only manage to get me one of the pictures with me in it during our company dinner. Here you go..

Caroline and me.. Lousy camera i have to say.. Sucks. And nonsense Roziah name this picture as "couple of the year" in her multiply account.. -_____-"'

Although its only the beginning of the year. But i roughly have everything planned out already. Job wise, i have to say my happy in my company because i have good bosses. And this job really can earn quite alot if the market is good. But i will still say i'm not closing myself away from all other options. I'm just like the rich, stay still and don't make any big movements at the time being. No one knows what's ahead. Any wrong moves can prove fatal to my wallet. LOL!

Secondly, i have already planned and organized on the important things i have to buy this year. So far in 2009, i have already bought a white formal shirt and red croco leather wallet from Tocco Toscano. Also a pair of leather shoes from Guess. Here are the pictures of it.

Price at $250.

As i am quite an organized person, everything has to plan accordingly. I seldom act without planning. So here are my money spending plan for 2009.

**FEB 2009.
-Zoom G9.2TT Electric Guitar Multi-Effects Pedal.

Price at $500 +/-

MARCH 2009.
-Stuhrling Centurion

Price at $580 +/-

APRIL 2009.
- Condenser: Audio Technica AT3035. (With "Yet to know" Loudspeaker)

Price at total $1300 +/-

MAY 2009.
-Zoom HD16 Hard Disk Recording Studio. (Recording function, Multi-tracks, Effects, Drum Machines and Mixer all in one)

Price at $1200 +/-

JULY 2009.
- Korg Mircokorg XL Synthesizer/Vocoder. (With "Yet to know" loudspeaker).

Price at $1200 +/-

*For people who do not know how a synthesizer/vocoder works but is curious to know, here are the videos you can watch.

SEPT 2009.
- (Addtional Electric Guitar) Probably Ibanez ICT-700. (With additional "Yet to know" Amp).

Price at $2000 +/-

I will have this Ibanez additional guitar to be constantly set on drop C or drop D tuning. That way i can practice my standard and drop tunings at the same time. And then my little bro can go work his ass off during his school holidays next year to get his own guitar. LOL!!! =X

Thats about all. Together with my existing Angellis Keyboard, Epiphone Les Paul 1956 Gold Top and Vox Amp. My home music studio will be completed as i have told Michelle too. And Michelle please... Continue working hard. Don't give up on your keyboard lessons.. :)

Alright gotta go to sleep. Still have got work tomorrow. Will be back to blog during the first week of February 2009. Hereby wish everybody an Advance Very Happy Lunar New Year!!! Take care everyone!! XP

Back!!!

2009-01-06T23:16:00.002+08:00

Okayyyyy as promised i'm here to try do a short post. LOL!! =X

Actually should have some pictures to upload but firstly the Xmas ones are not good looking (as seen in Roziah's facebook), secondly I'M STILL WAITING FOR EITHER CHERYL OR ROZIAH TO POST THE DINNER AND DANCE PHOTOS!!!

AND DAMN IT!! Not to forget people sabo me on the stage to be a clown that night. Damn super paiseh lor!!! Its a company dinner and dance cum raffles some charity shit dinner. So there's many many many more other companies also and i have to be a clown on such an event... Screw you Caroline. Yes especially YOU. LOL! -________-"'

And regarding what Miss Charlene has noticed. The "YES MAN ISSUE" shit and the "big tuesday" thingy. Yes. I got my mind fix up already and gave it a try. Went down to (i model international) today for the portfolio shoot. Felt so bad to have to reject the other company (Create talents Pte Ltd). I mean i don't mind giving it a try since they "think" i have something they want and need. And comparing wise both have very nice office. One at Park Mall and the other one i rejected is located at Dohby Ghaut Exchange. But at the end of the day i chose I models because as most will know, they are far much more popular. One of the most popular i would say. And also the Senior Consultant who has been attending me was very good, informative and professional. I mean i would admit to anyone that i'm a damn fussy bastard. But this man name "Patrick" can handle all my shits well. And so that builds up the comfort and trust. I swear i threw questions that even he thought very very hard before answering me. LOL. But well thats me for everyone. Will only be getting the shots in about a week plus time. But today according to Patrick they have already sent it out for a few print ads selection. The main two i can remember is "Levis" and "Singapore Sport Council". Currently will be on probation with them until they are really sure of giving me a full time contract. But well till then man........ Don't wanna think so much.

Purchased a pair of Guess leather shoes for work in this brand new year online. Singapore don't have this design and i super duper like it man. And damn you Leon!!! Still trying hard to tempt me into buying another Prada leather shoes... I will try to resist but i know my heart is failing me... LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its already 2009. Everyone is having their resolutions in their mind already. Some might already started working on them. And not forgetting Miss Catherine cheated. Hers are super duper easy lor! Other than the "save more spend less" one. LOL! That might be difficult for some..

For me personally, mine will be...

Resolutions for 2009.
- To dote on mummy much much more!
- To try pulling through this financial crisis in XZQT.. Man its damn hard now...
- To give my best in everything i do. Including I Models International. Hope they will bring me an interesting and unforgettable path ahead.
- To slowly work into making my bedroom my own music studio. (which includes multi effect pedal, mic condenser with stand, micro keyboard synthesizer, audio line in mixer, loud speaker and digital recorder)

Man the studio shit will cost me about 4.5k but no worries i will do it slowly, in my own comfortable pace.

Well for people for have read my previous post and fell in love with stand up comedies by Chris Rock, here's more!!

One more new one from Chris Rock and a couple from the great Eddie Murphy!!! Well people, please enjoy laughing your ass off here in my blog. Cheers!!!

Chris Rock - (R.Kelly, Tiger And Entertainment).

Eddie Murphy - (Eddie impersonates his mother scolding him for his dog!!)

Eddie Murphy - (Ice cream truck, impersonates how his mother fuck him up and issue on not hitting woman anymore.)

Alright got to go to bed already i'm damn super tired after the 5hours at I Models. =/

WISH ME LUCK!!

No lies...

2008-12-20T01:13:00.002+08:00

Alright i'm here to update a post because firstly i promised Peiling to. Secondly, i told Catherine i'm not gonna lie. LOL!!

Okk.. We are in the "Financial crisis just gone worse" period. Things just won't turn out for the better. I guess not till 2009 is over and done with! =/

And because of this shit i'm pushing all i'm plans aside. All aside. Mum keeps nagging and i don't want her to get worried. Like what she said might be true enough that it will be better for me not to do anything since my company is still standing strong and not putting retrenchment as an option. It will be rather risky for me to make any changes. Said my sis too. =/

All aside!!! But not for music. YEAH XP. Been practicing and practicing hard. Until i swear my fingers can't feel any shit now. But i'm loving it!!

Basically as for today 19/12/08 Friday, woke up at 10am on my offday. -______-
Went out for family lunch at Clark Quay. DAMN THE FOOD WAS DAMN BEST LA..!! ESPECIALLY THE FISH. Forget to mention, its a Chinese restaurant. After that dragged my arse home to practice on my music again. Went down to Swee Lee at Bras Basah Complex to take a look. Quite many people there man.. But service wasn't really good so didn't stay for long. Then made my way down to Plaza Singapura to visit the Yamaha store.. Damn its not bad! Neat and organized display. But well the only shit i can complain is that they have too limited multi effect pedal man!!! Well cause i'm looking for one to get the coming month. After the pedal then i'm gonna save up and get mic, mic stand, mic amp and voice synthesizer to practice at home too!!! Yes you didn't read wrongly. Nah i'm not crazy...

Recently been out around in town and have been approached many times by people who i don't know man... And there's only two things that happened.

FIRST SCENARIO: Hi, we are looking for male models..............ETC.

SECOND SCENARIO: Hi hey bro, how you do your eyes all black man? THAT FREAKING COOL............ETC.

Well the second one is alright but man WTF is with the first scenario man? You looking for new faces or you looking for scary faces??!! LOL. Crazy people... Hope they don't call me and ask me down to do crazy things...... =/

Well camwhored a little.. A LITTLE K PEILING!! And sorry Jesterbunny aka Amanda, if you're reading these, its new pics but still pics of me with my lens on. XP

Here now enjoy.. :)

THATS ALL. REALLY LITTLE ONLY. LOL!! Lazy to give captions. But captions given in facebook. :)

Short post. Nothing else to talk about already.. Till the next update people..

Sclera Lens.

2008-12-11T01:15:00.002+08:00

And tadaaaa!!!

Surprise!! I'm here for a short post. To share some new things and some things that i have owe some friends till now.

So i shall start with the things i owe.

Alright to "Roziah", "Cheryl" and "some others", the pictures you all long wanted to see. Its here. Since i got nothing to do and not really in the mood for weights. I purposely went through all the trouble just to take these shots k... So appreciate!!!
Here you go people...

And i love my mom always....

And i'm lazy to go through very detailed explaination. In short its called "Black-out Sclera Lens". Trust me its got longer names... SINGAPORE RIGHT NOW CONFIRM DON'T HAVE SO I MIGHT BE THE FIRST ONE TO HAVE THIS IN SINGAPORE.

Have to be ordered online from USA. These caused me good 500bucks including shipping and everything. No joke. With care able to last for 2 years. Took me 1 hour to figure out how to wear them. Alright and informations goes on and on. Lazy to explain. I will just let the video do the job.

And the new thing is.. Chris Rock!! The famous comedian. I recently through my colleague came to know of his live stage performance. Trust me man.. He's superb!!!
Enjoy....... :))

(NOT IN SEQUENCE AS UPLOADER SPILT IT UP.)

War On Terror.

Black Slaves.

Strippers And Rappers.

Michael Jackson.

Janet Jackson.

Love And Relationship.

Abortion.

Gay Marriage.

Alright its late and i gotta sleep. End.

SUPER DUPER LONG!!

2008-12-09T22:44:00.003+08:00

Okay. New entry!! With lots of editing to my blog. Thinking of changing the blogskin but no time man. Leave that to next time ba. Edited my links and took away the imeem player. Reason being now i'm a satanist, so i shall only link people who are comfortable with me or interesting people i know online, or interesting blogs. And as for the player, think i will be posting videos regularly, so the music player has no more purpose and its kinda in the way.

Off day today. Woke up at 12noon. Ate my lunch with mum and lil bro at home. Accompanied by some rock music. LOL! Was listening to some of my favorites like Smashing Pumpkins, Placebo, Sixx Am, Bullet For My Valentine and the new found Aiden!! Well for Aiden's music, i would it will take some time for most people to adapt to the growling. Its abit different from Bullet For My Valentine ones but i was pretty amazed by their music played. Its rather nice. Here are two of their songs with vids.

Aiden - Knife Blood Nightmare.

Aiden - I Set My Friends On Fire.

Went to my room and practise practise practise again. Really start to love my amp man. The sound can really make my knees go weak. LOL!! Practised quite a few songs. And again vids below. Enjoy these nice songs.. XP

Placebo - Bitter End.

Placebo - Special Needs.

Sixx Am - Life Is Beautiful.

Emigrate - My World.

Practiced till 8pm non-stop. LOL!! Right until Donovan gave me a call, request to meet up for kopi. Went awhile and now is back blogging. And ya for those people who wanted to see my gear. Here it goes. Was very busy and no time to post these pictures all these while..

My Les Paul 56 Goldtop. (Limited Edition)

The vox amp that never disappoints me.

Work has been quite bad. As for sales. Even rich people are having phobia to part their money. So ya. Its bad. And for the benefit of Hui Shan, who always tell me how similarly disgusted she feels whenever we talked about "him", i'm gonna post pics here on some of my products. And YES. I deal with rich people everyday. And so i truly know what it means to be rich. And YES i have to agree with Hui Shan that those people who believe him are naive individuals. One who is truly rich move his brains more than his mouth. Here are the pics people..

Lingotto Dining Table.

Its price.

Exell Coffee Table.

Its Price.

Glam Coffee Table.

Its Price.

Paramount Lounge.

Its Price.

So next time even thought you are full of LVs or other branded stuffs, think before you choose what kinda tone you should use in your conversation. :))

And my plans are moving. Thought having some setbacks here and there. Paperwork are processing already. Shall settle with Terios. Most probably a black one. Nah not sure yet. LOL!

Terios White.

Terios Silver.

Terios Black.

I like its fierce look and price. LOL!!

Went out with mom and lil brother last friday. Went to Causeway Point to catch a movie randomly. I was there first to buy the tickets so i picked "Body Of Lies". Its quite a nice show. Really. Don't understand why i don't see its commercial on Tv. =/

Body Of Lies (Trailer).

Basically its about terrorism if i have to sum it all up in a word. But i like the fact that they tried to mock about how stupid, arrogant and inefficient the US people can be. LOL!! You got owned Americans...!

And yeah talking about terrorism. I'm actually someone who is really very much into metaphysics. Which in a simpler explanation, humanity studies. And it covers a wide range. From politics to races, to culture, to countries and religions, psychics and supernatural beliefs, horoscopes and star signs readings, personality predictions to plagues that might endanger all mankinds, and last but not least to science. AND ALTHOUGH IT HAS BEEN MANY FREAKING YEARS. This terrorism shit has reminded me that there is still many naive people out there. 911 terror attacks. 3000 over people died. The attack seemed so much like a movie. And naturally to the peoples' knowing and understanding, it leas to Osama Bin Laden. Well here are two vids. The first one is a very very long show. So i hope you people have time can enjoy it. Very sad video about the attack and some hidden facts and interviews about people who jumped off the world trade centers for their life. The SECOND VIDEO. Is a previously banned video about how the FBI, along with the President of United States hid and denied the real evidence about the attacks which eventually leads to ONE CONCLUSION. THE ATTACK WAS AN INSIDE JOB. For a better reason to attack other countries? Or for more support of the "new world order"? We do not know yet. The world is scary when the truth is always hidden.

911 - The Falling Man.

AND THESE TRUTHS BEHIND THE ATTACKS..

Part One.

Part Two.

Part Three.

Part Four.

There you go people. In the end. Where do you stand does not matter anymore. For Christian believes in going to hell. Well i'm a satanist and i don't. Cause i believe the world we are born in right now, is already hell. :)

Alright. Ok. Now back to the current world concern. Our well known Sony just said Tuesday that it was cutting 8,000 jobs worldwide and shutting some plants as part of an overhaul of its business to cope with the global economic downturn. The electronics giant said it would axe about 10 percent of its manufacturing sites, cut investment in its electronics business by about 30 percent and downsize or withdraw from unprofitable areas. Sony, seen as a bellwether of corporate Japan, said it would lay off about five percent of its 160,000 workers in its global electronics business. It will also reduce the number of seasonal and temporary workers.

And now to Honda. Honda's F1 effort came unstuck by imposing goals on itself that it was never likely to achieve, the sport's ringmaster Bernie Ecclestone argues - as the reality of the 'Earth Dreams' initiative is revealed. Bernie Ecclestone has suggested that Honda's insistence on setting unrealistic targets for its Formula 1 team was the root cause of the car maker's shock withdrawal from the top flight, with a former senior team member adding that the 2007 Earth Car 'must have cost them £200 million'. The Brackley-based outfit - which burned its way through £147 million in 2008, for the meagre return of just 14 world championship points and the lowest position of any manufacturer-backed squad in the constructors' standings - has been put on the market for just $1, and is already rumoured to have elicited interest from Prodrive chairman David Richards, Carlin Motorsport owner Trevor Carlin and Arab consortium Dubai Investment Capital, which failed in its Magma Group-led bid to gain control of the defunct Super Aguri F1 concern earlier this year. Honda's withdrawal has also both puzzled and angered F1's commercial rights-holder Ecclestone, who knows that should just one more team follow suit between now and the 2009 curtain-raising Australian Grand Prix in Melbourne at the end of March, he will no longer even have a sport to speak of. I say anything can happen now in our world.

Recently i went around reading alot online. Especially on different races in Singapore, their lives and also back on astrology too. First about the races. Specialist have come to a conclusion that more and more chinese are marrying foreigners mainly because of our chinese female gender in Singapore are hard to please. In a way they do not really know what is life all about. They are considered the most naive group in the Singapore society. Studies and surveys have shown that our malay people in Singapore have no problems and are not affected not only because of religion difference but also, through their family education and values which cannot be learn in schools, taught them better of living and handling life in Singapore. Specialists believe that the main few values we must have in order to survive in Singapore is; "realistic", "ambitious but not risk-taking", "hardworking" and "the ability to be contented or in another words, know when is enough".

Next to horoscopes and astrology. It is believed that people of different star signs are "BORN" to be naturally physically attracted to certain other signs. Well i guess its rather true. Studies shown that one will only truely be physically attracted to not more than 6 signs which is not more than half of the full astro circle. And it will happen repeatedly. And man i have to agree with this one. So i shall perhaps start the ball rolling by honestly and openly talk about mine here. And these are the result after clear brain storming.

I'm a scorpio and i'm mostly only physically attracted to... (Not "really" in order)

1. Gemini
2. Scorpio
3. Libra
4. Pisces
5. Virgo
6. Taurus

And its true. But in recent years, i would say it will be (1,5,6). Don't ask me i do not know why. LOL.

Alright i better be off to bed. Tomorrow is gonna be a stressful day at work. =/

AURIS!!!

2008-11-27T20:30:00.003+08:00

OK! I'M BACK!!! LOL.

Sorry for the lil bit delay Catherine. :))

Initially other than the Suzuki SX4, my friends were also asking me to consider Daihatsu Terios 7. Terios is a jeep like car lookalike to the Toyota Rush. Exactly the same body shape and many other things inside are alike too. Just that yeah.. Daihatsu came out with this Terios 7. Meaning in another words, longer/heavier body but 7 seater. Bigger makes it looks more manly to me man personally. As i'm not those speedy speed boy type la huh.. So i think it looks rather special and manly. Rough kinda look. Planned to give a good post about it with much more informations and pictures but things kinda change yesterday.

Got nothing to do at work from 3pm onwards.. So browse around for more cars as an option and OMG NEVER WILL I EXPECT MYSELF TO SEE SOMETHING LIKE THIS IN THE TOYOTA'S PAGE. SERIOUS.

Wanted to keep this only to myself as i really feel that i have found a gem. Exactly what i want now in this current "great depression" alike situation. And believe me. YES. I'm still talking about TOYOTA. XP

Its Toyota Auris.. A very popular car in Europe. Over there they have many versions of it. 1.5 to 1.8 to the racing and even coupe version. Until last year then they decided to make the 1.5 version able to be imported by pi in Singapore. So people please..... I beg you.. SSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...............
After reading this. Keep this only to yourself. Grinz*

Still very excusing me "fucking" rare in Singapore. Out of 100s of importer companies in Singapore. Right now still only 2 companies are able to bring it in. And thats what i like about it. I want to be special on the road. LOL!!! But come on i think its essential if you hope to drive it for long. For me personally looking at driving it for long till the next jump to the much higher range perhaps an Alfa? =X

So with no time to waste. Here come the pictures... 3 types to it. Normal ones and 2 other concept versions from European motor carshow. Don't worry. Will not mix it up altogether. Here you go... Starting from the normal ones.

The ultimate interior. Taken by an owner in Malaysia. Thumbs up to you man!!

A white one. Taken in Japan.

Black. The colour i'm thinking about.

Whole interior front look. Dashboard.

White one in a carshow.

Black is the colour for this one man...!! :)))

Again black.

This is another shocking part. The meter.. Be amazed. Be very amazed...! XP

For less than S$55000, this is all you will be getting.. Unbelievable... =X

Not forgetting smart key cum push start... GRINZ.

Figure out there might be female readers like Catherine and so thus.. RED. :)

Black. Taken in the snow. Cool..

Black. Picture taken out from commercial..

Another shot..

SUPER interior..

The exact look i will like... This is breathtaking..

Another wide interior shot.

Angle shot. Focusing on the center console which usually only appears in luxury cars or even worse, concept cars which are not for sales.. :P

Another shot.

Black. Front view on the road. Drools...

Front and back..

DAMN DAMN CLASSIC SHOT. Good skills.

The concept design center console. Taken from commercial..

OK HERE COMES THE REAL CONCEPT VERSIONS.

Introducing first. In Europe motor carshows, they call this Auris AG. Alum look.. Its OMG..

AND HERE COMES THE "SPACE" CONCEPT..

AND TO ADD ON. HERE ARE THE VIDS ABOUT THE CAR. XP

So now... Hmmmm.. Is it a good buy? You will already know yourself. LAUGHS..

And recently have been really focus into cars as the time draws nearer.. Here are 2 DAMN FUNNY vids i have for you guys. From my favorite shows during my teenage life. "GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME". First one is related as its about buying cars. DAMN FUNNY.

I present you. THE ASIAN TOPGEAR. LOL!!!

And here is another damn funny, random one. XP

Ok shall top here. Weight training..!!! Donovan is here already. LOL!!!

Quick but long.

2008-11-22T20:54:00.002+08:00

Hii.!! Okk i'm back to blog. Thats like not even a week so its consider very "fast" for me. XP

Well first thing first. After much time, long hours of brain storming... I think i shall proceed with my job hop next year. And maybe probably much earlier. During march 2009. Called the other side and its much of a "confirm" thing already. They will just be waiting for me. LOL!! =X

Some changes here and there due to the situation the world throw us in now.. No more peugeot 207. Pricey and small travel cabin. Gonna get a light budget one with large cabin and boot space and i'm glad i have found it!! The Suzuki SX4 Hatchback Crossover. I'm so in love with it and so gonna get it for sure.. Very unique look for its price.

I really like the looks...!! XP

The back view..

Side view. Its quite a big car man.. Worth it for the price. XP

At Malaysia Car show.

Interior taken from European website. And the amazing info i found out is, this car is more popular in Western countries more than Asia. Mainly for its ability to switch from FWD to AWD. :))

Guess we all are humans after all. Even the richie rich are weak against these enormous financial tsunami. Scary. Even in my current company, we already have customer who can't pay up for their goods as they have already declared bankrupt. Managing Director of Merrill Lynch included. And heard she has gone abit lunatic because of it. Its quite scary and sad.. =/

I really don't know how we Singaporean are handling it.. Even for people who read my blog, i don't know what kinda crowd my blog attracts but its like for the benefit of all and especially those who don't read newspaper, online news, watch news on tv or don't have a damn idea what's going on. I shall blog not only updates of my life, but also all these news and issues arising due to this recession in the upcoming months or years to come. So here are the updates...

First. Our Singapore very own, biggest and proud to have shipping company NOL also known as Neptune Orient Lines, has announced at least 1000 job cuts as a start in this so call "start" or "jogging period" of this financial downfall. And some experts say if NOL do not come up with new plans or to cut more jobs, their loss will continue till as far as 2011. NOL is the biggest shipping firm in Singapore and the top 7 biggest in the world but still, experts fear they might not make it through.

Second is our popular CITI group. Last post i updated about the 100000 job cuts. Now comes more. Following by the "might be" world's new highest record of job cuts by CITI group, comes the sad and devastating decision or sale. Selling large parts of their firm away. And if need be. The whole firm. But this sad end will only come into the picture if by then their last resort of merging with a rival fails. Some analysts have pointed to Morgan Stanley and Goldman Sachs Group Inc. as potential suitors.

Third. USA's big three automaker. "General Motor", "Ford" and "Chrysler" are all running out of time!! The three have made declarations to the white house that they will need for sure an emergency of $25 billion lifeline but was rejected by Bush. As in they are not able to get the amount needed to save the firms. They are sure that when Barack Obama officially steps up to power, they will get the exact amount of aid needed to turn the table around but fear that they may be running out of time. Even months are extremely critical to them.

Analysts in US are in great fear, that before reaching the mid of year 2009, they will be looking at what they call now as "massive bankruptcy" and have since said "The ramifications are nightmarish."

India. Textile industries in New Delhi, which is the second largest foreign exchange earner, will lose half a million jobs by April 2009 due to the financial crisis.

Experts are trying to come up with a global plan, mainly to help US, Germany, Singapore, Hong Kong and Japan as these countries are labeled as the worst casualties of this recession. But fear failure as some Analysts has already see prospect for this financial downfall as "The Great Depression Two".

So overall. Scary eh? Still this is just the beginning of the show. The "warm-up" part as they call. As this may last till 2011. And we're not sure when will the climax hit in too. Oh well. Life's not good LG. :)

Was suppose to have some "music" practice today but everyone is not free so i just go on with my hibernation till 4pm plus. LOL!! Woke up when my mum whisper into my ears beside me.. "Oei.. Are you dead?". LOL!! I have got an epic mom. Serious. XP

Little brother try to take pics of me sleeping like a log but too bad i woke up le. So took pics of my shag face..

Damn! It was raining damn big lor. So shiok.. Mom why must you come disturb me??!! LOL. Serious. As from my studies of horoscopes and star signs. She's indeed as described for a Gemini women. "The older she grow, the younger the heart". So old liao yet behave like a small kid. Always sleeping then she come ticker my legs, ticker my armpit, play with my eyeballs, and much more. Sick but adorable mom. XP

Anyway below i shall post three vids from youtube to entertain you people. Of course by my post alone i hope you are not bored laaa.. Hahaa. Three vids. Here you go..

First one! This guy from Korea i think. Damn pro in his electric guitar. Solo display of what he call "canon rock". Its actually electric tune of the art piece "canon in the d". Watch and listen to it. Damn nice!!

Second vid! Found this song which is new to me. Its call "Butterfly Caught" by "Massive Attack". So for those who know who they are. Yes you're right. Its some kinda slow, low, dark, house or lounge kinda music. The reason why i put this up is because of the nice MTV. This guy in the vid, marks slowly starts to form up on his body which look like patterns on butterfly wings. AND ANOTHER REASON IS. Around after 3:30, his eyes turns all black!! So cool..!! Like the sclera lens i mentioned i bought. That will be how i will look the next time you see me on the street on my offdays. But not recommended to those really really "timid" type of people.

And last. For all those people who are like me, quite a fans of "Muttons from midnight" of 98.7fm, all for people who like funny shits, this is for you. Though i don't know how new is this.. Might be a lil outdated but hack it la. Watch and laugh for this..!! XP

Ya so thats all. I shall go away from here and have some weight training. :))

LOL.

2008-11-18T21:35:00.003+08:00

Alright Alright Alright Alright Alright Alright Alright Alright Alright Alright Alright....!! I'm back to blogging finally!! XP

Was away or should i say 'MIA' from blog cause part of my life was so screwed up. Basically just nothing 'nice' to blog about. Thought of closing this blog down initially but then, yeah. Some of you disagree and thanks for your support people. Still having the thoughts of opening up a facebook account. But up till now no time to do it. Been having real tough and hard weight training. And into something new. Music.!! Not gonna tell wad i'm doin now with this so call "music" but most of my time will be dedicated to it too. Also that will be like another 1 - 2k plus flying away for it. LOL. So basically i shall just fast forward abit... XP

Blah blah blahhh.. And now ta da...!! Hmmmm. I'm getting closer to my goal. Which is my car. But then now recession, was settled with going for Peugeot 207. Really but the fact is the cheaper Suzuki sx4 hatchback really tempts me a little. LOL. Cheap and nice! I'm a satanist now. And yeah. Thats all i want to say about that in my blog. Still a big spender here. Just bought Marc Jacobs shades at around $450. Bought IPOD Touch at $498. Bought Satanic Bible. Bought a pair of Sclera Lens (all black) at around $350. Its actually very cool. Never seen anyone have it yet in Singapore. I'm like the only one. This contact lens actually cover your whole eyes and make it all black colour. Much bigger in terms of size for sure and strictly not recommended to wear more than 8 hours a day. Don't worry pals, will follow that strictly. :))

Went for Jia Yuan aka Zokami's birthday chalet. As usual kena dua by him nia. Always say got girls go then WTH one. But its ok la. Your birthday celebration more important. Saw Yi Lun, George and gang. Its been so long lor. Last time was like near half a year ago at phuture. We play game and drink, drank, drunk. LOL. Not me but there's this one guy damn funny. Don't know why. Maybe he thirsty. Like to lose. Halfway KO liao. LOL!! Played mahjong also.. Awwww.. Miss that game so much. Been years since i last touched it. Slept till quite late the next day. Hang over seh. Left the next day night with Stanley aka Sandy. LOL! Quite sad to leave actually. Had so much fun. But i didnt miss you Zokami... I miss your dogs. Especially cookie.. So darn cute la he!!!

Last Sunday was my 21st birthday. Yeah. Happy birthday to me!! Was working on that day. Didnt celebrate it. Anyway nothing special laa. =/

And how lucky i was. Was still like so god damn far away from my sales target and on my birthday itself, finally, after so many days of taking zeros home, this nice old couple bought 12k plus of stuffs from me and YES! Hit my target liao.. But not gonna stop here n settle for just this. MORE MORE MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XP

Though i'm numb with my life and honestly think that my birthday is nothing special.. Still wan to say thanks here to those sweet people who still remember to wish me. You people made that day a little more special la. Hahahaa!

THANKS Edelyn, Yang Fang, Cheryl, Aryne, Bryan, Ah Lim aka LYC, Donovan, Xin Tian, Sabrina and Ah Nick. Think and hope didnt miss anyone out. Most forget la. But hack la!! I dont even remember others de birthday anyway.. LOL! =X

Next month having activities activities activities! My free time to weight and music. 6th Dec going for Sabrina's birthday celebration. 14th Qiao Hui's birthday celebration. Hmmmm.. PLEASE! No more birthdays... LOL!! Dont tell me!

Christmas coming.. But i got no plans leh. Anyone got anything interesting??? Something super duper special please let me know. Date me in advance... XP
And no clubbing please. No pubbing. Super sian. That has been my life since 14. No more please. And come to think of it.. I have already stop smoking for like more than 4 months without realising it.

Recently been browsing around. Things change very much without you realising it. Eunice aka Mika got a Bf le. Looks like not bad, having a good time. And alot of my friends' life changed too. Happy for them. But a lil worry about Wendy. Though not very close with her but she's like not having a very good time. =/
And the one with the most impact is Mandy Soh Wan Yi. One of my ex girlfriend. Seems like she's doing good. With a boyfriend too. Happy for her. But she do look like too skinny.. But well. Its been years since we last talked. Its been a long time i hear her cheerful voice. I know deep now inside she still hates me all these years. But i don't know why. =/

Anyway. I'm getting more and more emotionless nowadays. Is it me? Is it the world? Or is it Satanism? LOL. Oh ya careful people. With your job and spendings. Just after DBS retrenchment, now follows by CITI Group as read from news today. 100000 estimated job removal so far globally in a day!! Can you imagine that??! OMG... Just in a day 100000 people lost their job and life's stability at stake. Scary. Anything can like happen in this world. And after these amount of job cuts, they are still looking at negative financial turnovers.?!?!?!! WTF.. Experts are saying that they fear CITI group will not survive this recession too. =/

Personally still thinking about a job hop approximately at June next year. For more salary of course. But now looking at this situation. Its not gonna be a smooth and easy process as i thought initially. But well. One step at a time ba. Lets see how are things by then. Alright think i should stop here. Will try to update my blog once a week i promise you pals. Gonna get some good early rest for work tomorrow before i lose my job too.. LOL!!! Random pics uploaded below. :)

*The best symbol of reality is Satan. In order to be true to my beliefs, I must seek out the truth, to know. In Satanism, the self is God. Out of the self comes ones own experience of life. This experience of life is sacred. A Satanist does not pollute this life with skewed perceptions of reality. To have a skewed perspective on reality is, for a Satanist, to worship a falsehood. Satan is the worshipping of truth and reality, and the abolishing of falsehood, deceit and lies.*

Yawnss...

2008-08-25T23:36:00.003+08:00

Yawnss... I'm so tired and lazy recently.. Didn't want to blog but yeah.. Think i should. But as you have already read, i'm EXTREMELY LAZY. Its not gonna be a real long one and will not be a detailed one. Grinz.

As i have been saying... 2008 sucks big time for me. Everything just went upside down. Real screwed. Been ignoring not only my blog, but also my friendster. Hmmmm. Basically something happened like a week plus ago that kinda upsets me? Yup. But not to worry my friends, you all know me well, nothing in this world really can bring me down. I survived the "break up depression" 3 years back, this is nothing so don't have to worry. Though i have not told anyone about it and still is very keen on only keeping it to myself, ya, its just peanuts. Thanks my friends.. For the msges and comments on friendster, you all have been real sweet.

Basically life after last post till now.. I went for 2 chalets. One is for my dear Jessica's birthday! And the other one is for dear Joyce's birthday! Got photos for the 1st one but not the 2nd one cause Joyce haven't send me the photos yet.. =/

Other than the 2 chalets.. Nothing much. Really. No clubbing and pubbing as i'm already real sick of it. And yeah! I'm saving more money.. Hahaa!!

Well regarding the matters of heart, i'm still very lost and confused. But yeah something happened today and changed everything. Decided to take things as it is. Put all these matters aside. And focus more on the tasks at hand. I'm already much much more closer to getting my own car with my own hard earn money. So much closer now. Aim by next june! Gonna down more and pay much lesser for the installments.

And here i got things to say to some of my dear friends..

Dear Mika: Congrats on successfully getting ur new part-time job. Though only part-time, but still take it more seriously and don't club so much le.

Dear Wendy: Hope you mean what you say by wanting to change your life. The no more "drink drunk" thing. And i will be here for you and your job hunt. Earn money more important and you know you can do it.

Dear Donovan: Thanks bro so soo sooo much. Though you can be real loud and irritating at times but thanks for being here for me when i'm feeling so lost and down in this sucky 2008. And you know i will be there for you too. To help you out with your matters of heart.

Dear Sky: Bro great to hear from you again.. Hope you can stand up again and get everything back on track fast. We are all here to help you don't worry.

Dear Gordon: Thanks bro for always helping me when no one else will. The things that you do to help me goes beyond anyone's helping hand.

Dear King: Jiayou! Go for it! Don't worry so much. We have been here for you all these while.. :)

Dear Benny: Its been real long since we last talk. But you will always be like my elder brother and i promise we will meet out real soon..

Dear Runfa: Thanks ai ren. I know you will always be here to make me laugh and smile.

Well thats all. Nothing else to blog. Perhaps my mood is not totally back yet. But i swear to myself already. From tml onwards i will have to work thrice as hard, save twice as hard. For everything else in the near future.. Car. Marriage. Honeymoon/vacation at Finland or Alaska. House/renovation/furniture. But yeah. Car is the first on the list...

Civic
Legacy
Civic!
Legacy!
Civic!!
Legacy!!!!!!! LOL!!!!!!!!!!

And yeah. I just feel like writing this. Drunken girl really extremely turns me off. :)

And recently i been SO ADDICTED TO some MUSIC LA!!!!!!!! WOOOT!!! And you people should try listening to these songs lo..!! I don't my sending you people thru msn. Just let me know.

Blake lewis - 1000 miles
- Surrender
- I Got You
- End Of The World
- Here's my Hello
- How Many Words
- Without You
- Whatcha Got 2 Lose

Jacks Mannequin - Dark Blue
- Bruised

Youssou N'Dour And Nenah Cherry - 7 Seconds

Boys Like Girls - Thunder
- Hero Heroine

Sleeq - Masanyan
- Set Back

Secondhand Serenade - Maybe
- Your Call

Savage Garden - To The Moon And Back

One Republic - Say (All I Need)

Human Nature - Cruel

Jesse McCartney - Leavin'

Howie Day - Collide

Photos will be below along with a tarot card thingy i have done.

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Qiao Hui & Me. (6 years plus friends)

Me & Birthday girl Jessica.

Me, Callista & Jing Ting.

All four!

Callista and me acting cute. LOL!

Taken when slacking under my block after work with Donovan.

Another one.

Full body size taken by Donovan. Basically he suck at photo taking.. =/

Thats all. My life ain't special. :)

Super Ultra.

2008-08-12T01:11:00.002+08:00

Okkk.. I better burn my night and have a post up if not i might get my arse burnt. LOL. And yes this will be a super ultra long one. Seriously i'm so confused i don't know where to actually start from. =/

Alright here we go. My eyes are much better now but not totally recovered yet. Still have to go back for medical appointment this Friday again at the Singapore National Eye Centre. Super duper sian.. Watched quite many movies recently and i shall give my reviews about them later on below.

Let me think. I think the Sat before last Sat. Alright i know its kinda far but shall start from there. Went for my medical appointment. And then head down to Causeway Point to have a movie with my family members. Watched "Red Cliff" for the second time. LOL. First time i remember was with my very good buddies. Talking about them. I'm damn sad and worried for one of them. Mr SKY LEE!! Where are you?! So sad that i don't even know the result for your court case. Don't even know are you in prison now and for how long.. I will really really miss you always my brother. After the movie, went to "Ichiban Sushi" to eat lunch. Photos will be uploaded below. I don't usually eat japanese food but the food there was fine. Then went down to town to meet Xin Tian and Fionnn my dear sis. Slacked with them at one of the cafe beside The Heeren. Drank iced coffee and treated them to Tiramisu cake. But wasn't appreciated lor! $4.50 per slice and i treat them each to 2 slices including myself. In the end Fionnn eat until damn tortured like that and Xin Tian like machiam playing with the cake liao.. Wth. LOL. Keep nagging to me about fattening laa.. Chatted on some very sensitive topic. So funny lor. LOL! Especially on her. The Miss "sometimes you just want to be me". =/

Then Wendy came. Then the topic of the day changed from the Tiramisu cake to "SLOPE"! LOL!!!!! Damn funny. Firstly i'm not short. AND TO YOU GIRLS, I MEASURED ALREADY LOR. I'M CONFIRM 178CM!!!! Duh... And why that topic? I shall explain. Dear sis Fionnn is not a short girl. Very tall. Shorter than me abit without heels. But she just have to choose wearing her soo sooooo sooooooo high heels and for that day she was TALLER THAN ME. Wth lor.. So paiseh.. Felt like everyone was looking. Xin Tian and Wendy also short. So i kept telling Fionnn to walk slope. LOL. We on the higher part and she was to be at the lower part on the other end of the path.

Fionnn then left work. And the 3 of us went to Fish and Co. to have our dinner. Eyes became very red and painful but still i endured. Enjoyed the meal and time spent with them. Rushed home, put eye drops cause really damn pain liao. Then drop dead on bed to sleep while the both of them joined their friends to Powerhouse. I can't club... Sob. But nevermind. Anyway don't why not so into clubbing already. The passion seems to die down. Hor? MIKA! LOL!!! XP

Then few days later forgot exactly when.. Arrange with dear Mika to meet up. Went to her house wait for her. And its like so WTH. We just stay along the same street. Kept on telling me not to late in the end have to go up her house and wait for her. Do her makeups la... And i don't know what else. Anyway her house damn big la. She only live with her mom and dad. And they are staying in HDB jumbo. Read carefully dear readers... HDB JUMBO. NOT HDB MANSION OR EXECUTIVE BUT JUMBO. So xin fu yet she don't know.. LOL! We then headed to 888 plaza. She went to buy her colour contact lens. Still ask me to choose for her.. So funny lor. She kept asking the sales person about the colours and don't know what eyes big big thingy until the guy like quite irritated liao. LOL!!!! I was soooo tempted to buy the Gucci shades i saw there. But in the end didn't due to my sudden surprising self control. Hahaaa. I then went to trim my hair. Wanted to just trim it. But the aunty kept talking to me about short short hair nice. I know its nice but don't suit me i think. She then showed me a pic of a jap guy with a nice short hair style she claimed. See already ji tao i feel its "JUSTIN TIMBLELAKE" hairstyle lo. Ask me to try. But of course i don't dare and i won't try at all usually. But recently i have been real stressed up about my life. So i just went ahead and took it as a chance to vent out my frustration.. In the end it was like OMG la. So damn ugly can? I feel.. Its abit longer than timblelake's hair style lor. Wth. Ugly until don't know how to describe. So sad and regretted. But at the same time i was feeling so touched. Because i actually asked Mika for her opinion though i already know its ugly. But Mika's reply was not ugly. And she was soooo damn sincere and sweet in her reply. Made me sooo sooo soooo touched and believed in her. Really. But in the end just to go home and tell my mum i had a nice haircut and see her laughing her ass off. DAMN. Damn my mom sometimes seriously. LAUGHS.

After went home. Changed and ate dinner. Went down to Causeway Point to meet up with Mika, Yi Jian, Sherry and her friend for movie! We watched "Money Not Enough 2". Damn nice but i shall give my ratings later below. LOL!! Mika you don't laugh. Hahaa! Wanted to take photos that day but in the end everyone forgot and left for home for bed. -___-"'

And last Thursday went met up with Donovan. We headed down to Cine for games of pool cause that day we actually arranged an outing. Xin Tian came down to meet us. We then went to watch "Love Guru". Very funny show. Rating below later. Adelyn and her friend then came down also after the our show. We then headed down to Crystabelle Ktv at Outram Park area. Teo Hong road to be exact. My favorite place for Ktv. Reach there liao. Open the room i booked and threw the 3 girls inside. Donovan and i then went for our dinner cause the girls not hungry. Ate nice nice food especially my damn damn top of the list favorite, "Gong Bao Tian Ji". Woooooooooooo.. Made me so high. LOL. Went back to sing awhile after that then Sabrina came down also. Catherine aka Neko also should be coming down at first but in the end chose her so call "husband" over us. Dear sis Fionnn was sick and was on medication at home so could not join us that night. Had alot of fun singing except Xin Tian was quite bothered and stressed up by his bf thingy. Saw her cried i also heart soft. But don't know what to do. =/

Adelyn and her friend left early. After singing session, wanted to rushed over back to Cine for a midnight show. But in the end even the last show was sold out already. Didn't know what to do so we went to play pool again. So shiok. After so long never play i still so pro. Wahahaa. Kept playing winner stay loser out. But other than me, Donovan and not forgetting the 2 girls, Xin Tian and Sabrina, all damn pro also. Kept on almost lose almost lose but didn't. In the end got one round mistake then lost to Xin Tian. Finally can rest so camwhored with Sabrina. After that headed home as that morning still got work. Shag. O_o!

Went back to work. Took some adjustments. Anyway now my company's so call sister company will be hiring new staff. After that Aryne from that company "Moda" will be transferring to my company "XZQT" and somemore my branch. So more adjustment to come cause once she transfer over, either me or my the other colleague will be transferred to Paragon branch as Paragon there got one staff kena "fired". =X

Alright now to the movie ratings for the movies i have watched recently.

*Wanted

4 out of 5 stars.
I think the main character could have been a much handsome hunk? LOL. =X

*Red Cliff

4.5 out of 5 stars.
Impressive. Really a must watch! Great story with great actors/actresses.

*Money Not Enough 2

4.5 out of 5 stars.
Very realistic show about our life in Singapore. Very very touching story line too. Another Must watch! Actually could have gave this show a full 5 stars rating but... I didn't because for twice of about 5 seconds have to see Miss "sometimes you just want to be me" in the show. And it turns me and many others off. Really. Could have get many other ladies with better looks and character. What a turn off.. =/

*Love Guru

3.5 out of 5 stars.
Very funny comedy. Of course i feel that how funny a comedy can be depends on our humorous the viewers are. So it actually depends on individual but to me its funny laa. Some sick lame jokes here and there. But also very good ones especially those about his guru logics. LOL. And whats better? The actor who acts as the guru is the same guy who acted as Austin Power years back. Funny guy i love his funny acting. And inside the show you get to see the small man who acted in Austin Powers as Mini me, Jessica Alba doing hindu dances and of course not forgetting Justin Timblelake as The Coq, a guy claimed to have a big cock and everything around him even his underwear is with the logo of "Le Coq". A street brand for bags i think. LOL.

Alright shall stop here. If not getting too long man this entry.. LOL! Here comes the photos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Tiramisu cake!

Xin Tian trying so hard.. LOL!

And my dear sista Fionnn have to give me this kinda face. LOL. =/

Me with specs and Fionnn. I look like fcuk lor. =/

Me and Fionnn. Awwww. Miss my hair man.... Sob.

Xin Tian, Me and Fionnn.

Okok.. Stop. Tired liao... LOL!

Meet ninja Wendy!!

Act shy.. LOL.

Me and Wendy. Notice my left eye damn red lor. Think i ke yi man! Cornea infection still go out enjoy. LOL.

Xin Tian, Me and Wendy.

Us again.. :))

I finish this bowl of udon at Ichiban before i can remember to take photos for blog. Ha!

Teriyaki beef. It was damn nice i tell u. Like tappanyaki. Woooooo!

Mom and Sis. Chatting or arguing? Eating also talk so much..

Lil bro and me. I like this pic sooooo much.. XP

Very random pic. Catherine aka Neko and Sabrina. Before she come down for ktv with us.

Sabrina, Me and Xin Tian in cabby.

Playin Pool.

Me acting cute in Cine K pool. LOL! XP

Xin Tian also act cute.

Sabrina and Me. SEE IT?!!! Hair damn short lor. WTF!

Donovan stoned. LOL!

Donovan and me.

Donovan, me and Xin Tian.

And a random drawing done to cheer my dear friend up! :))

And now i'm so damnnnnn mad again. Because HEROES IS BACK!! Season 2 man! Wooooooo!!!
And here at my blog. For the benefits of Heroes die hard fans like i am one, and also those who haven't tried watching before. I'm posting these fan made trailers. Watch it! Very well made fan trailers. Hehehehe! See! I'm going crazy. Gonna buy the Season 2 DVD! I'm collecting it for sure since i got season one already. XP

*Season one trailer

*Season one trailer

*Season two trailer

*Trailer on upcoming still processing season 3!

Alright. With all these................! I say goodnight! :))

Mega Post.

2008-08-01T21:08:00.004+08:00

Okk. This is a megapost. Nothing to do at home so decide to write a REAL LONG one.

Woke up at 6am this morning.. -__-
Went to SGH Singapore National Eye Centre. Waited for one and a half hours then get to see the eye specialist lo. Same woman who enjoyed playing with my eye yesterday. =/

One and a half hours of waiting.. 5 minutes of checking. Just to hear this.

"Condition didn't improve. But of course luckily did not worsen also. Wounds having reaction to the eye drops meaning still not so bad. Okay la. Tml 9.30am see you here again okay?" -_____________________________-"'

Again?! I swear to god i wanna cry.. This is torturing man... But of course the good news is "still", i don't need to stay in hospital.. =/

And browsed through i would say an "old friendster" friend's blog. This girl by the name of "Caiwei". Don't think she can remember me ba. Used to know her on friendster during the time when i had 9 friendster account all named as "Hanshiro". Ya. Maybe some of you seen it or heard of it before.. Yes so to her blog. She had this entry on the guy who drove his Civic, crashed and killed my this 19 years old female friend. The same girl i was talking about in one the previous post. Think i can still remember the guy's name.. "YAP KEAN BOON". Anyway according to her quite "gangsterism" post, i think many young punks are looking for this guy already. Living in Tampiness if i'm not wrong.. Well as for me i'm equally pissed but sorry i'm not longer the guy with bleached white hair.. Fringe touching the back of my ears, sideburns which can tie a knot under my chin and tail that can touch my shoulder. So this kinda things just leave it to you young punks baa... Hahaa.. Its kinda sad. Knowing that you're driving younger than me yet you are using this gift to murder. You might as well murder these young punks out there who are looking for you since you're so talented. Hit and run laa. It already doesn't matter how many you kill. Young drivers please cherish what you have. =/

And also over here i would like to bring this issue out also. Models. I can say i have "TONS" of friends working as models... But the "few" of you. Together you people this group of friends and models who i know. I seriously don't know whats wrong with you people... Let me explain things out in details for you readers here.

This first girl i'm gonna talk about. She's short. Skinny. For me skinny and slim is totally different thing okay. But hmmm.. Photogenic i would say with quite attractive tanned skin. This girl once posted this phrase in her friendster profile.

"SOMETIMES. YOU JUST WANT TO BE ME".

I mean.. Seriously. Up yours la. Who wants to be you?! I think everyone feels great being themselves. And those who don't would already have died jumping from buildings and MRT tracks. Why would others want to be you??? Wake up your ideas. Singapore is "flooded" with models. So whats the big fuck about it?! You think you're great? I think you're just one dumb tool that modeling agencies bosses use to earn money. You earn nothing compare to theirs. And and.. Please try going friendster and browse around profile of Singapore ladies.. I think out of 10 profiles you view, 7 would claim their model with their shoots photos. So get this into your head. You're nothing special.. Looks are nothing without personality. And not forgetting intelligence. And i think you missed the "KIA" motorshow thingy. And you have been like moaning about it around Singapore. Why you need more attention?! I got friends who did motorshow for FERRARI. And yet they're humble. They don't go around telling everyone or trying to catch everyones attention.. I mean pls laa..

YOU MEAN YOU'RE SAD NOT BEING ABLE TO STAND BESIDE A "PICANTO" IN A MOTORSHOW?!!
Give everyone a break. Or we will be dead due to over-severe laughter. But if you really feel so sad?! Go carpark lor. KIA PICANTO not difficult to find. Just stand beside one all you want...

Now to this second girl who i know years back. Though i didn't really like you since back then. But i never thought you can become worse today. Many guys think you're pretty? But you should also always know many guys like us don't even know how you become a model in the first place. You met up with my friend. And when the both of you talked about cars.. You said..

"Please laa. BMW nice meh? I one call can have 50 BMW come down okay!"

Correction for you! 50?! Which one is your boyfriend? Your fcuking boyfriend riding bike. So just shut your gap, wear your helmet and be your pillion. Don't come and boost this kinda ridiculous things.. Got 50 Honda fit come down every good liao. 50 Honda fit, one of them is your boyfriend then i sincerely think you're living a much better life already. Get it? Get that into your thick coconut.

Ok.. Enought of these people. Its sad but we have to admit. We can't avoid having people who disgust us like them in our society. I think Ken Ken will be laughing and loving this entry of mine to the max. Boy. This is for you. LAUGHS!

Below is something new and funny i got from "MR BROWNSHOW" Blog. I'm gonna link this blog in my blog also. And below i will post one of his latest audio creation on ERP in Singapore. Its actually a song with the lyrics. Hope you people enjoy it! XP

Photo by .KM.

Singapore drivers can look forward to 16 new Electronic Road Pricing gantries for more driving pleasure! Now coming to a residential road near you!

Podcast: the mrbrown show 4 Feb 2008: 2 Many 2 Count - ERP Drift Download MP3 (MP3, file size: 2.2mb, Time: 00:02:19)

*Lyrics*

2 Many 2 Count - ERP Drift

I wonder if you know,
How they live in Ang Mo Kio
Go to city many gantry
Can’t afford your speed too low
Fast and furious! (Kena!) (beep! beep! beep!)
Slow is dangerous (Aiyah!) (beep! beep! beep!)

I wonder if you know,
How they live in Toa Payoh
Please lah tolong, only Lorong
Not Expressway also tio!
Fast and furious! (Kena!) (beep! beep! beep!)
Spread like virius! (Aiyah!) (beep! beep! beep!)

Many many taxes danglin
ERP now is randomin
Keep your speed ‘bove 45
Or everybody Cashcard won’t survive!
Suka suka ERP on
Happy happy gantry can born
16 new ways to gope your lui
See already want to pui!

Gahmen say take MRT
Cos car is only luxury
Build the road for Fellari
Normal car will up lorry
Ji Pa Ban (uh!), Ichiban (uh)
No million dollars you Lan Lan
CTE is the place to be
Singapore road for VIP

I wonder if you know,
How they live in Ang Mo Kio
Reach work early, at 5.30
Spend three hours drink teh-o
Can’t be seraious! (wah lau!) (beep! beep! beep!)
Live like vampires (ouch!) (beep! beep! beep!)

I wonder if you know,
Where the gantry never grow
Where the lorry Never worry
Travel freely where you go
Pulau Bukom! (Don’t have!) (beep! beep! beep!)
Pulau Tekong (Huat ah!) (beep! beep! beep!).

*I can't deny. It sounds stupid. But i'm worried. Worried for her. As she's the purest of all.*

Oh Great.

2008-08-01T00:42:00.006+08:00

Oh great.. How great!! Things just can't stop getting "BETTER" for me man..

Today didn't go to work. Left eye swollen. Applied for MC. Went to see doctor. Checked on my eyes. And yeah. And how of sudden, i was recommended to Singapore General Hospital A&E for eyes specialist checkup. Some more SGH again.. The place i had my broken pinky operated 2 years ago.. =/

Here comes the full story..

Monday - Went to work.. Left eye became red. I thought was irritation so ignored it. Plus i'm a workaholic. I don't take MC unless i'm dying. So still working and wearing contact lens.

Tuesday - Off day. Still the same. Except a little better. So didn't consult any doctor.

Wednesday - Felt fine. Just a little weird uncomfortable feeling in my left eye. Still went to work and after that club. With contact lens.

Today - Woke up. Pain like hell. Can't go work so went to doctor for help. And he said i could be blind if i continue to ignore it.. O_o

Mum "gan chiong" rushed me to SGH. Reached there. Okay laa.. Didn't wait very long unlike last time my broken pinky's appointment. See the doctor already. And the best part came!

Injected 2 jabs of painkiller. 1 near the left part of my left eye. Another one on my left eye lid. After that 2 more drops of painkiller into my left eye. And yeah. The female doctor started her enjoyable project on my eye. She got a needle-like tool which looks like a very tiny crow bar. O_o
Used it and try to remove the virus or somehow what she calls it as "cornea ulcer" by hmmm.. How would you people like to call it? I call it scratching my eye ball!! Wanted pics to be taken but mum didn't even want to have a look at how she's doing it. =/

Tml morning got an appointment at SGH's Singapore National Eye Centre. 8.30am!! Have to be awake by 6am?!! -______-"'

And since 7pm i reached home. I have been using 2 eye solutions or antibiotics or eye drops whatever you call it. Every 2 hours once. Use the first one. 5 minutes comes the second one. One feels okay.. The other one simply feels like dropping acid into my eye everytime. Burning!!! :(

And ta daaa!! 4 days MC for now. Tml go appointment. No improvement and thats it friends. Have to stay in hospital for closer checkups. 1 month no contact lens and have to follow very strict sleeping timing because of the amount of drops i need to have in a day while awake and the amount of rest i need for my eye. So ya.. 1 month no need to go club.. Think MIKA is laughing her underwear off laa.. She cannot club due to car accident i laughed at her. Then now i sooo unluckily join her team. =/

And ya. Wanna thanks Xin Tian so much for chatting with me on msn for the past few hours because i got nothing to do. And yeah i know some of you were shocked cause i MIA from MSN damn long liao.. Especially Andy, Net net and MIKA.

Wth.. Coming with greetings like "WOAH!! I GOT SEE WRONG OR NOT U ONLINE!!?" LOL!!! DAMN U ALL!! XP

And nothing else to write already. If i'm fine by tml i guess i will ignore the MC and go back to work on Saturday. But if with doctor's warning i might re-consider. And if lagi best, sleep inside. -___-

Wahhh.. If MC 4 days or more WHAT THE HELL AM I GONNA DO?! BORING AT HOME LA. WASTE OF TIME. Only can carry weights, play games, listen to songs and surf net. How many hours in a day can i do all these man... Arghhh!!! =/

Well gtg sleep already. 8.30am must meet the female doctor again. Wondering how she's gonna "sayang" my eye tml again.. -_____-"'

SGH MC..

And yeah. Fucking burned a hole in my wallet. Tml appointment some more must pay again. ARGH!!!

Appointment to hell. Careful with your eyes you people out there.. And i live Woodlands!!! Censored my address because scare of people like Net net. Want to "GAN DIAO" me. LAUGHS! =X

And i miss her. Hope she's fine and happy. :))

LAST BUT NOT LEAST. AS PROMISED. THE VID OF (CAMBODIA BLACK MAGIC.) *FOUND!*

*WARNING. MIGHT BE TOO CRUEL. SUGGEST VIEWING OF VIDEO FOR FEMALE READERS TO BE AFTER HER MEAL.*

-BUT TRUST ME. WATCH TILL THE END. THIS IS AS GOOD AS ANY MAGIC SEEN.

* ENJOY !!! *

LOST.

2008-07-31T03:47:00.003+08:00

LOST.

LOST is the only word i can describe about myself right now. Yesterday night was the worst night of 2008 for me. I swear.

Didn't enjoy the clubbing session. Misunderstandings here and there. Saw alot of things i never want to see. Hear from Xin Tian what i never want to hear.

Went through alot yesterday and i swear i was just a tiny lil bit to explode into my "unplugged" mode. Seconds turn to minutes. Minutes turn to hours. I was just mentally tortured. And all these stupid shits happened because of me. God damn me. End up saying sorries here and there.

Its getting even more crazy now. 2008 just got worse for me. Why is everything always so wrong for me? And maybe i shall just get lost. :)

Dotx.

2008-07-30T00:42:00.005+08:00

Well.. Today enjoying my life away. Because its my OFF DAY! Woke up at 3.30pm. =X

I swear i didnt went clubbing or any sort of nightlife thingy. I was at home last night! King didnt believe me. Saded. Anyway don't worry King. I will try my best to locate Sky and see how is his court case going. We will stand by him till the end. :)

Woke up le ate lunch.. Then nothing to do. Bored. Carry weights till 7pm plus. (I must be mad already) Bathed and ate my dinner. Wanted to trim my hair. Went down to 888 plaza. Withdrew money but by the time i reach there. Its closed already. -______-
No choice. Trim next off day lor..

Went back home. Watched tv. Chatted with mom and lil bro. Then yeah. Back to online life again. Checked friendster. Wanted to do some more additional stuffs for my blog but then.. LAZY. LOL. As usual replying comments. Then into reading blogs. And to be frank. I'm always reading the same few blogs only. Especially "that" one. I also don't know why. No idea what the hell is wrong with me man..

Been sitting here thinking for hours. Asking myself questions. Questions that i don't have answers yet. And its crazy. Asking myself why am i so concerned? Its none of my business anyway. And i don't think my concern is very important though. I wasn't like this in the past. I'm supposed to be carefree with my hack-care attitude. Asking myself why am i suddenly not in control? I'm supposed to have very good self-control. I seriously think i'm not suppose to be doing all these. I don't have to say so much i tell myself. Just be like who i was. Only care about my own things. But still. I'm doing it. Its crazy.. I'm just not acting like myself lately. I need serious psychotherapy. A good one perhaps. I'm supposed to be a feeling-less creature. Numb to almost everything. But now. I feel again. Feel.

Am i.. Falling?

See! Its crazy. I don't wanna think anymore. With that. I say goodnight.

And yeah i will be posting my off days schedule here in my blog in my next post. So friends who wanna organize any outing or clubbing sessions. Can have a look at it and let me know in advance. :))

Hi again.

2008-07-28T02:40:00.005+08:00

Okkkkkkk.. Here to blog again. This place is still under abit of construction here and there. Spent an hour trying to move the stupid imeem player in the right position but i can't. It either appear or disappear but songs still playing.. -____-
I have got no choice but to reduce the size of the player to the extend its difficult to read the song titles and artists. DAMN IT. I will leave it as it is first until i got a way out. =/

This imeem player here will be a different playlist from my friendster profile one. This one is loaded with many songs which i like. Ranging from rock, pop, love songs with beautiful lyrics. So readers if my blog is bored, stay longer and try the tracks. I bet i got lots of nice songs you have never heard before.

Ok now down to business. About my past few days.. I WANT TO COMPLAIN!!
Why is it that everyday on the MRT train after i knockoff, i will be so god damn "lucky" to sit beside people who stinks?! My god i really will go crazy one day. The smell ar, i think i rather go smell the fishes in the wet market better. Or or might as well prefer to sit beside the rubbish chute. Wahhh. The "scent" that came out from these people ar, really make you want to vomit. Hard to describe. But guess you people can imagine. One of them is a china girl somemore. Working in popular one (Cause she was in her uniform) and her bloody uniform smells far worse than those NS guys' number 4 sial. Sit beside will die. Lucky i have "VICKS" inhaler. Using it to quit smoking but hey! Never thought that it have other uses too. =D

Work wise.. Market really bad. Quite many potential customers. But nearly none are ready to commit the money. All holding on. Shag... Anyway don't talk about this anymore. Let's move on.

Hmmmm. I decided to use this post entry to help "skinny guys". Yeah. No doubt about it. I was a real skinny guy. Before my national service 3 years back i was at a weight of about 45kg with a height of 178cm? Can you imagine that? LOL. Some of you don't have to imagine as already have known me for years. But hey now i'm around 60 plus standing at about the same height. (Of course not shorter la.)

So "skinny guys", i'm gonna help you. Though i don't even know do i have "male" readers or not.. LOL! Anyway.. I shall proceed.

You guys want to grow big size and escape from the word "skinny" or "bones" yeah? You will most probably be thinking about food rush, push-ups and gym. Well i have a better way. Its faster for sure.

You see people. For my case i got myself a bar bell. Unlike a dumbell (shorter version), a bar bell is the longer one you see on tv during the weight-lifting events. I got mine at Bukit Timah Plaza at about under $130? I can't remember clearly though. Its a bar with weights that adds up to about 55kg in total. All in steel of cause. Why am i recommending this? Well simply because it works. Cheaper and more convenient than making trips to gym and results faster than just plain push-ups. Let me explain further in detail.

One's appetite and how your body absorb the nutrients depend very much on your lifestyle. Forcing yourself in carrying real heavy weights almost immediately change everything. It opens up your tissues, tears your old muscles and regenerate new ones. I will say by force la. My way will be forcing your body. And when this happens, your need to sleep and the amount of food needed will then also increase. Trust me, just that simple. Try bar bell at maybe 40kg (Depending on how strong you are) and i think you can easily see results in just 2 mths. Now not everyone is very familiar with bar bell. I will write down what i do with it for you guys.

*Bar bell - 55kg*

Standing Lift (Behind head) - 15 times. (2 sets)
(In front) - 15 times. (1 set)

Careful for the above 2 exercise. Carry only what your body can take if not you will definitely hurt your spine. Like me. LOL. But well. I don't really care one. Haha.

Then

Front Or Bicep Lift (Like how you normally carry a dumbell with palm facing yourself)
- 15 times. (2 sets)
Front Or Triceps Lift (Like how you hold on to a trolley)
- 15 times. (2 sets)

Chest Press (Lie on floor with mat preferred. Best if you lift your knees and legs off the ground like the crunches sit up) - 30 times (3 sets)

Normal push-ups - 40 times (1 set)
Spider push-ups - 40 times (1 set)

Thats all. Simple. Should be able to finish all these within an hour. Best to do it almost everyday. So as to let your body get use to the amount of weight faster. I mean. I think everyone can do it. Why choose to stay skinny if you can have a better looking body? Just like why would girls want to be fat when they can choose to maintain slim? Same logic. You choose.

Well actually wanted to post a damn disgusting vid from youtube. My colleague showed me at my workplace and i swear anyone who watches it needs hours to get your appetite back. But its amazing la. Its Cambodia black magic. I can't find the vid to post because i forgot the vid name. It was in Cambodia language also.. -___-
Anyway the vid shows a guy chanting for quite some time. Then he got himself a chicken. Chant and pray for the chicken. Then he proceed to make deep cuts at the legs of the chicken. I would describe as the "knee" area. He then uses his might strength to pull off the chickens legs!!! WTF. Not yet finish. He then continue to chant and pray here and there. Continue by giving a deep slash at the neck of the chicken till it looks like the chicken head is hanging onto the neck. After he made sure its already dead, he then chanted again. Here comes the shocking part. He held the chicken's broken legs (one in each hand), and then carried the dead chicken by its 2 upper thigh. He then swing the dead body up and down, up and down for about 8 times. Not forgetting to mention, he's still chanting like "i don't know what". Out of the sudden, he let go. The dead body then fell to the ground. The next second. The chicken is alive again. Running around. Its like. OMG! WTF LAH!

Ya i promise to try my best. Get that vid and post it here. LOL. Actually here tying this entry just few minutes after my weight-lifting. And ya. Camwhored a lil. To ya. Show the difference to any "male" readers that, a 45kg guy like me can become what you will see in the pics below. Just follow my way. Trust me. Good luck people! :))

Shag face after working-out. =/

Lil bro is quite a good camera man given his age. LOL.

In renoma boxer trying to look like thai boxer. LAUGHS!

This pic is specially taken to remind my dear old MIKA. I'm cuter okay! XP

*Found these older pics below. Soooo. Post also lah! XP

Sleeping beauty. =X

Elder sis and me. :))

AND YES YES. LAST BUT NOT LEAST THIS CAN SAVE YOUR LIFE. LOL!

Alright thats all for today.

*Why am i acting so strange? Why am i suddenly out of control? Why am i having this feeling again after so long? Is it because of her appearance in my life?*

Back To Blogging.

2008-07-24T23:13:00.004+08:00

Okkk.. I'm back to blogging. With the same blogskin plus just a lil renovation here and there.. So i consider it re-opening of blog ba. And don't ask me why i'm back into blogging. I have my own reasons for everything but for this case, i don't feel like telling. XP

Alright so let me just do a warm up for my first entry ya? After so long never blog liao abit rusty here and there laa..

First thing first about myself recently.. Doing not bad.. Got a new job in a new company. Better pay, better environment and maybe better prospect? Hahaa. "That" i don't know yet man. But market is really really bad and ugly now. Several banks in US gone bankrupt already.. Automobile companies start to slow down or stop production on cars already since they are having too many "unsold stocks" in their warehouses. And thus this made the prices of platinum slided down like worthless trash. Several airlines companies also deducted 10% from salaries of directors and managers to compensate for the increase in jet fuel price. And the famous Quatas Airline. Will fired 1500 staffs starting from next mth also due to rising jet fuel price. Really feels like the world is going upside down man...

Due to bad market, since few mths ago i have been trying real hard not to waste money. Guess i did not that bad. Only bought a G STAR jacket from Paragon. Retail price was at $499. But due to only last pc left. I got it at $350. Will upload the pics of it below later.. :))

Been clubbing at dblo these few weeks. Really sick of MOS and Phuture already sorry to say this. Over crowded with people who don't know how to dance, can stand there do nothing like how his cock stand there too just waiting for girls to grinde.. Come on la.. Get a life man! Over crowded with people who don't know how to drink, 10pm reach there 11pm plus can lie outside zouk vomit here there and everywhere liao. And especially weekends. Friday and Saturday night. These 2 places will be over crowded with NS guys.. Don't dance. Just simply get themselves high with alcohol then go inside dance floor attack ladies or just stand there with their cock standing. Really to the extend like they are having meals in camp with sex drugs. Weekend release them they become monster. I don't remember "we" were like that during our army days.... =/

Anyway gonna reduce my clubbing. Gonna club once or twice a mth only. Wanna spend more time on resting and weight lifting or maybe some other things too..

And like what some of my friends have seen. You people like Xiao Bai, Sabrina, Donovan, Henry and Marilyn. I only go down to clubs and dance. I can be "di di siao siao" on the dancefloor but it meant nothing. Why are you guys in dblo trying so hard for? And even when you people tried so hard, don't talk about me, even my friends who don't dance can't get what shits you all are trying to do. Relax man you people. LAUGHS!

Still thought that 2008 will be a lil better than 2007. But then from my point of view. It just worsen.
Let me explain.

2007:
5 friends entered jail. 1 friend drowned. 1 friend commited suicide. And 1 friend's mom commited suicide. =/

2008:
4 friends entered jail. 2 still waiting for court results. 2 friends' mom passed away due to illness. 1 friend passed away from motorbike accident. Few friends got into motor/car accidents. And just last Wednesday. 23rd July 2008. Planned to go dblo and have fun. But before having fun, have to go down to my another friend's funeral. Female 19, car accident as passenger. Car skidded. Girl flew out of side window. Head direct impact. When i reached the funeral the pay my respect, the body and face of my friend is a lil beyond recognition state. I shall not mention her name here. Driver didn't die.

And not forgetting my dear MIKA. Car accident oso last weekend. Can't walk properly now. Worsen then must operate. And according to her, her face looks like Chucky's bride. LOL. Though i still di siao her but i don't know what the hell is with the drivers today.. Dear MIKA, please rest well. ;))

First case Honda Civic. Second case Mitsubishi lancer. There's already no point in driving soo fast n somemore, with such cars? I mean its like.. Lets talk about speed and stability. If a Honda Civic, can run as fast and as stable as Honda Civic Type R, then what's the point in them coming out with the type R? If a lancer can run as fast and as stable as evo. Then why Mitsubishi still coming out with Evo? I mean come on laa. Wake up!! Even drivers in Type R and Evo can't assure accident free rides in high speed.. So before you drivers go into the "hao lian" or cocky state of mind, please be a lil responsible and tink about the life of your passengers please..

Sooo 2008 sucks. Thats the conclusion for this post.