Raining, the road is wet. Container truck jams brakes in front and shift over to my lane to dodge some cars upfront. I braked hard. Even with the help of engine brake, my vehicle is moving forward fast.
I dodged. Into the filter lane. My vehicle almost flipped over with right wheels grinding the kurb hard. Supervisor said i'm lucky and i shud have been dead.
At that short split minutes. Many things come into my mind. I thought i was dead for sure. I was wondering, wondering.
Who will come to my funeral? Who will be fast enough to see me before my last breath? Who will grieved in sorrows for years over the loss of me? Who will regret losing me so suddenly? Who will curse and celebrate over my ceremony? LOL.
I also wondered how it will be like to be dead. Maybe we will get to see and know things that we will never find out while alive. Things like what will life be for the ones who know u after ur departure? Things like who will actually sincerely remember this loss for life? Things like how much do u really mean to some people around u. Things like who ever lied or cheated on u in any ways. Or maybe even things like who are the sincere and truthful people and who are those hypocrites. LOL. I mean perhaps as a spirit u might get to see what normal human being can't.
I think i might need to change job. For i felt that this was a serious warning to me. Sounds supernatural but it feels that way. I'm glad i'm alive still, for one more day. One more day to love the people important to me.
Recently my fav song on FM while working.
The Fray - Never say never.
Cherish everything. Including life. For i know as i stretched mine for the second time. First was the motorbike accident years back. This time i wasnt hospitalized. But i do know it was critical. My life was stretched thin like a rubber band at its maximum elasticity. It was almost a critical goodbye.
