We are still good. Very good. Transformations taking place. The good ones. Results will show. Went to in camp training. Feel fuck up as usual to be wearing green. But it was fun chatting n laughing away with old pals like Wynson, Wesley, Alfred and Jerome.

Here are the our so call "APEC" videos. :)










This is a repost specially for u all. Glad u all like it.

Goals. Common goals. One of the most powerful thing i have learn through experience.

Mine.















Hers.





Believe. Work it hard. I love you forever.

Have heard rumors saying Muse is the best band in live performance. I didnt believe. Now i do. Here are the songs performed live.

















The voice the music the energy they give to the crowd. Its simply out of this world. :)

Today accident. OT at Tuas Point. Shud have gone home straight but wanted to go Tiong Bahru buy her jelly beans. Passby Depot Lane accident. All the taxi fault. Crazy. My windscreen shattered. Nose bled hands light bleeding. Fainted for 5mins. Woke up with pain everywhere. Went NUH or medical checkup and police report after that.

Nun is accurate. But god didnt do a good job. Y wasnt i dead? Shud have taken my life. Now i have an accident case to fight. I'm screwed. I rather be dead.

Got picture but now i need a rest first. Will update again.

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

CHORUS
Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here no there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

CHORUS

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same




When you were here before,
couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so very special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out again...
She's running out
she runs, runs, runs, runs...
runs...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here...

Today a life and death situation on the road.

Raining, the road is wet. Container truck jams brakes in front and shift over to my lane to dodge some cars upfront. I braked hard. Even with the help of engine brake, my vehicle is moving forward fast.

I dodged. Into the filter lane. My vehicle almost flipped over with right wheels grinding the kurb hard. Supervisor said i'm lucky and i shud have been dead.

At that short split minutes. Many things come into my mind. I thought i was dead for sure. I was wondering, wondering.

Who will come to my funeral?
Who will be fast enough to see me before my last breath?
Who will grieved in sorrows for years over the loss of me?
Who will regret losing me so suddenly?
Who will curse and celebrate over my ceremony?
LOL.

I also wondered how it will be like to be dead. Maybe we will get to see and know things that we will never find out while alive. Things like what will life be for the ones who know u after ur departure? Things like who will actually sincerely remember this loss for life? Things like how much do u really mean to some people around u. Things like who ever lied or cheated on u in any ways. Or maybe even things like who are the sincere and truthful people and who are those hypocrites. LOL. I mean perhaps as a spirit u might get to see what normal human being can't.

I think i might need to change job. For i felt that this was a serious warning to me. Sounds supernatural but it feels that way. I'm glad i'm alive still, for one more day. One more day to love the people important to me.


Recently my fav song on FM while working.

The Fray - Never say never.



Cherish everything. Including life. For i know as i stretched mine for the second time. First was the motorbike accident years back. This time i wasnt hospitalized. But i do know it was critical. My life was stretched thin like a rubber band at its maximum elasticity. It was almost a critical goodbye.

Relax my mind. My favorites for mind recuperation and rejuvenation.


TRANCE.

Delerium Feat. Jael Of Lunik.



NEW AGO.

ERA - Misere Mani.


ERA - Mother.


ERA - Infanati


ERA - Looking For Something.



Funny amazing. Until now I'm still having butterflies in my stomach whenever she send or reply my smses. Its magical.

My turn to be having a short rest. But not actually cos still many things to handle inside my head. Darling has been very busy with school and start of work. Learning everywhere. Breaks my heart to see her so tired. Miss her very extremely much recently. Never really have the chance to have quality time together. And I don't know why recently I'm always having this nice songs in my head whenever I think of her. Nice song with meaningful lyrics. Will post it here now.


Tokio Hotel - Monsoon. (LIVE)



I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold, it's making me insane
I've been waitin' here so long
Another moment seems to've come
I see the dark clouds comin' up again

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I'll think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon
Just me and you

A halfmoon fading from my sight
I see your vision in its light
But now it's gone and left me so alone
I know I have to find you now
Can hear your name,I don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness feel like home?

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I'll think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Hey!
Hey!

I'm fighting all this power coming in my way
Let it take me straight to you,
I'll be running night and day
I'll be with you soon
Just me and you
We'll be there soon
So soon

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I'll think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon
Through the monsoon
Just me and you
Through the monsoon
Just me and you



I miss you like crazy. Saw a nightmare last night. And its still haunting me whenever I close my eyes. I'm trying very hard to shut myself out. As I can feel him coming back to me. He wants to haunt me deep inside. I'm strong. You made me strong. I will never let it happen. Please take my nightmare away and never let it happen again.